The new AM sucks!

Okay so I went to work today...saw a new kitchen staff...Sally...Mmm...she speaks chinese...old lady....likes to talk alot...>.<...well but shes okay i guess...Den comes this Fucker Alex...oh boy hes a douche bag...I seriously think hes has a problem...Fucker claims to be Grade 3 of French Wine tasting and was from Mandrin Hotel @ Orchard also as an AM....but he got retrenched...

Okay lah...2nd day on the job...my first time seeing him...when i shaked his hand and told him i my name...his pronounciation sucks man...(Eh-Win)??? wtf is that....Hello its Aaron zzz....Okay
So we were all doing our job right...and he keeps blocking our way...well even our Manager helps us do stuff instead of just standing there...Urgh...he keeps following Bryan like one fucking hawk balls...Even the customers think hes a perv...Fucking stalking Bryan everywhere...

Yea so he claims to be Grade3 huh....Fucker cant even recomend a single bottle....He brought 2 bottles out to the customer just now...to choose from...which asshole will do that...it shows that ur uncertain of ur choice...customer drove off...LolZ..Marcus and i were laughing at him...and he even asked Marcus to recomend for him...Oh boy...Clown..

And he thinks his jokes are funny...I seriously dont know how to act when he cracks a joke...my laugh is so fake and he can still carry on...oh boy....Thats why i never talk to him the whole day...
Dont know what kinda assistant manager is this...cant clear a few glasses...Manager yah i know...But still...dont be an anti social fuck who keeps hiding when theres things to be done and
learn something for goodness sake instead of just walking around aimlessly...

Urgh....

The new maid sux

Okay so i am not trying to complain or whatsoever..but its the truth here...My mom keeps siding her...yea and i know we should give people time...but the thing is that why the hell does she agree with me when she dosent understand what am i saying? that stupid correct?...

I dont really care how she cooks....but Grey is a living thing here and its been with me for 2years already...If i am gonna lose her like Lady i'll sure flip. She agrees that she shd feed Grey everyday...comeon lah...bird is also a living thing...i rather she feed the bird den clean my room...

Came home today and Grey was making so much noise...till i realised that he was hungry....after i refilled his food...he gobbled it...>.<....

Oh anyways...yea hope she adapts fast...

Lady dies..

She just past away not too long ago...

i just had dinner and wanted to check on the birds to see how they were doing...i suddenly heard Grey making alot of noise...and i saw lady in a position that she wasnt supposed to be in...i gave the cage a little shake...no movement...i knew that she past away.

Her legs were slanted and giving way...and i saw the damaged eye of hers...i stood there for a moment staring with disbelief and grief...I felt so sad and sorry for her and i felt bad as well...she died in her cage...which i dont want it to be...

I brought the cage into the kitchen and put it down there again and stared at her...my heart started to feel heavy... My dad told me to put her in a bag and throw her away... I took a yellow plastic bag and reached for her gently... I felt so sad when i was holding her...usually when i hold her like that she would start to bite because she didnt like her wings to be in the grasp of my hand. This time, no retaliation....I wished she could have bite me...No matter the pain...i wished she were there to bite me....

I turned her around...saw her good eye was open...she was smiling...at me...i was reminded about the old times when she loved coming out of the cage to walk around the house. I stared at the eye one last time...till i closed it...It was difficult to close her eye...Closed once...it opens up...till i held it down...i saw a clear liquid coming out through her nose...I dont know why she died....I dont think my maid had fed her the antibiotics though she said she died...so yea...i dont know.

I dont know what to say already...just that well its prolly my fault because i dont have enough time to spend with her...only at night...It saddens me deeply that she has to go...and i hope God takes her in heaven.

She has been so obedient thoughout her stay with us...and lovable too...its really a loss esp for me....cuz i am more attached to her than any other member of my family...

I am sorry that I wasnt there to spend time with you when u needed attention Lady...Pls forgive me.

I think Grey must be wondering whats happening to her now...Or hes prolly griefing.

Understanding it.

Just came back from Plasma...mmm after work..we decided to chill out there...ordered a jug and yea..got myself quite high. After which i chatted with Yew Cheng about her...Mmmm...he told me to forget her...he said that her bf now is a asshole...

oh well whatever... Dosent concern me if his parents didnt raise him up the right way...so well...learnt alot from him...I mean if it happens..it happens...just treat it as your misfortune...which i find very valid.

Being a man means to forgive and forget....To Err is Human...To Forgive Divine...
obviously i wasnt being a man last time...
Anyways...i've said sorry and hope things just cool down...

Being a man also includes, not stealing someone elses girlfriend...thats what a loser would do...so yea...truly, hes a loser... All the big talk about telling me face to face...yea...lolZ...if thats the case...i wouldnt be posting this. lolZ...i hope that mother fucker is reading this. U know who u are lil bitch..Too bad i cant find u otherwise u could get ur ass whooped. Oh well... Lucky u.

Anyways...its 5.44am friggin early >.<....and no ones online..so yea...guess i'd get some slp. NiteZ-

MY BIRDS LADY & GREY

A totally new day. Brighter =)

Just won a game of warcraft =P....its 3.26am now...saw e movie A lot like love...oh boy...to whoever reads this...That show is awesome!...Mmm Very good news! I saw Mr Cheah just now...and he said that my assumptions about the wind tunnel calculations are correct!!! YES!

Hardwork pays off...now we are gonna buy a sensor which costs above 20k...Panel Presentation is on Monday...Thank God that my group is at 3...this means that my group can do some last min. touch up to e presentation.

Mmm...so okay...now i am kinda committed to my beloved project...If this kicks off and it works...chances of entering Uni are gonna be high...not forgetting job offers from various companies...mmm there still a long way to go...STAY COMMITTED!

Currently listening to Third Eye Blind - Semi Charmed Life....awesome song...though its super old. Mmm...okay now Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight. Haha...feeling nostalgic...mmmZ...reminds me of e old times.

So yea...its just 2 of us just now..me and Admond...watching e show...mmm...Oh well....Bryan's in Tioman...Marcus...army...argh...Gotta work tml at 6...>.<....oh well...Money is impt =)

I just copied Mr and Mrs Smith this afternoon from Jean. Haha..gonna watch it tml. Hope that i wake up early that is...mmm its 3.35am now...yea i gotta get my ass in bed.

Anyways, i got it off my chest already...so well...I feel better now. ^^ be it she still hates me or not.

Now i know how being a parent feels.

Just looked at Lady just now...she seemed so sad...i cant do much about it either...neither do i know how to cheer her up...i feel so bad about it but i cant do anything...shes never this down before...I think she was crying when i was digging the pas out of her eye just now...

Nowadays she just seems to be so still and sleeps most of the time...Hai...i will spend more time with her from now on...shes still my baby girl.

Taking Lady to the Vet

Ahhh...just finished cleaning Lady's (My baby female cockatiel) left eye...i feel so sad for her...she cant see through her left eye now...but still i can see that she is still being brave...she lets us clean her infection without really squirming around....though it hurts...i can feel it...its the first time she bit me real hard today...i know that it hurts real bad for her...and i feel bad doing it...but if i dont...her nose will get infected too...

Vet costs are 64 bucks...so ex...i had to withdraw some money from e bank...cuz i only had 54...>.<...that poor girl...i cleaned her eye 4times now since she came back...what i hate doing is digging out the pas from her eyes cuz i know that she would feel so much pain....

Now i know how my parents feel when i fall ill...

Lady is such a brave girl.

OH BOY! i feel so wronged...WAHAHAHAHAHA

WHAHAHAHA so Juli seen my blog...oh man...what a shame >.<...i meant it for everyone else in e contact list...thats too bad...she thinks that i wrote that blog to piss her off...oh man...i really dont wanna waste energy doing something like that...its totally childish and ignorant LOL...to think she can come up with something so lame like that. Anyways blogs are for someone to post their feelings...and others to read and comment on them...wanna communicate why not just post a comment or message me right?...oh brother...>.<

LOL...*yawnZ* well if ur reading this Juli feel free to post a comment or message me if you are unhappy(whatever) just like i emailed u. u dont hafta bottle it up u know? =P

Or better still...DONT READ ^^

man...that noise coming from my neighbours suck...F**king annoying man....i guess their renovating their house...hasnt stop since i woke up...>.<... AH good...its stopped!

This is what i call a cock and bull story

Okay...so she has a bf right after we broke up.Whoopie...boy am i suprised?....No....i figured it out long ago already...I just didnt want to say anything till i found out the truth...She didnt wanna tell me about it at all....what does she think i am...some 10 year old?

2timing....2nd fucking time i got 2timed...Mmm...First its that fuck Cherlyne. Well...shes out of school now...good for her. Now its her...someone whom i LOVED so much....i really got nothing to say but well....i believe in something called karma and retribution...do this to me and just get ur desserts back soon enough.

I hate people that 2time...Seriously...she may have dumped me first...and said it wasnt straying off...But she got a bf the next few days...its the same fucking thing...its still straying...she liked him just cuz she chatted with him on the phone till wee hours of dawn? and spent the whole fucking day with him...And that just changed her...Fickled minded bitch...

No way we can be friends again....NO FUCKING WAY...I am not magnimous enough to be friends with someone that can do this to me...

Saying i cause trouble and all that kinda fuck...to me..my image of her is ruined..i wished i never met her...Seriously...They say all dreams end up in nightmares...True this is one fucking nightmare....i wished i NEVER fucking met her at all...

Its over...

Its over...i didnt expect this...its over between Juli and me...But WHY?! cant she just have a little more faith in this...that it will work?! I mean why does some guy just come in and talk to her till 6 in the morning and she goes with him?! What the FUCK DID I DO?!...

This is pretty deep....i wanted us to work...i WANTED US TO WORK!!!!!!...WHY IS ALL THESE HAPPENING?!....

sometimes i feel that its so fucked up to face this kinda situation. I cant do anything also...its her choice....I CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING!!!!!!

One moment we are going on so smoothly..she sent me a bday card and all...and i was so happy...i really didnt expect this to fucking happen...its all too fucking fast. Its not that we really argued or anything..i just didnt message her because she had exams and stuff...and she said she had to study everytime i messaged her...so what the fuck is this?!

Why?....just tell me fucking why...

Finally a SOLUTION or maybe just a HYPOTHESIS

Hi....mmm firstly i am so touched...by 3 people...Firstly Juli...who sent me that lovely birthday card and that lil footprints card thingy. And she drew on her hand Muffin <3 Shortcake..haha i was so touched...=)...2nd Mr Cheah Choo Lek...my project supervisor who went all out to help me by sending emails to his collegues and stuff like that. 3rdly Mr Thahir...who helped us so kindly today by letting us have a look at his load cell and giving us the contact for some suppliers...

Now currently listening to Underworld - Born Slippy...mmm Previously Tiesto - Nyana. Mmm okay so today basically had this practical about internetworking fundementals...argh its too much to remember....i hate FIT...the lecturer sucks....and MEMS dosent seem to be going well either...hope they teach us some real things instead of the applications and background infomation...argh...i know its only the 2nd week of school...but RMV is going on too fast...i gotta read up on it....>.<>.<

Pls help me Lord....