Double kill

One of the harsher days in Charlie wing...yesterday was our Ex Skylark and Ex Nightbird. navigation exercise in day and night....using the air photo...but however...the wing practically used the map to navigate...i have to admit. Some of us were spotted by CPT Iskandar and we got Fucked big time. As for me...i got fucked by CPT Jason again for putting a cigrette in my mouth. Cant take it anymore...i was walking with a stick in my mouth and i got fucked for that...i mean wtf man....and fucked by APC LTA Zaoxiang for not securing my map...when a billion other people didnt. I mean whats the point? if i didnt lose the map at the end of the day...it shows that i am responsible enough isnt it? He says what...its an attitude and integrity problem... i dont get a single word.

CPT Iskandar fucked the whole wing nicely by giving us pumping and making us touch a tree and stuff like that within time limits because we didnt show a sense of urgency. Some cadets also used a stick to walk thru the jungle which i dont see a problem with...i dont know why are they so particular with this...Its just a fucking stick for fuck's sake.

Some cadets got scolded in front of CPT Jason by Hotel Wing 2IC and he got really mad. That night when we went back...another nice round of pumping. first was 5mins FBO fall in...den it was pumping in FBO den it was everything in and out within 1min or smth...den change to PT kit...den more pumping etc. Shacked out...i slept like a log man.

2 CPTs giving 2 different punishment...really a double kill. Its a fucking irony because i dont see them practicing what they preach. Like take for example...Handling tools etc...i dont see them using proper equipment...yet they tell us to go by the books.

And it seems like i am getting picked on now... i seriously dont know how long can i last in this shithole. Treated like a fucking dog everyday. Every Fucking Day.