The day grandma left. 20th Dec 07 - 93years old

I was in e living room happily playing my new PS3 when Mom suddenly called for me to go into grandma's rm quick...went in, i saw her mouth opened as though gasping for air but she was still...eyes closed. Immediately, i felt for a pulse...there was one...i checked the breathing, there wasnt any...soon after i felt for another pulse...this time it faded and soon after, it went off...my mom and maid were beside me and i turned to them and shook my head.

Immediately, (Lana) my maid started bursting into tears...it took me a while to register..."i have actually lost someone who has been with me almost my entire life" i told my mom to inform everyone to come back quick...cuz they left in the late afternoon after praying over her.

I felt for grandma's hands...they were really cold...and just sat there and cried. Its been a long time since i cried.. Not everyday u see someone at their deathbed and this time i actually seen someone go away... It was peaceful i guess..

My Dad came home first..with uncle Martin and aunty Clara. He immediately kneeled down and started talking to her in cantonese...den he burst out into tears...then came aunty Betty and then the rest of the aunties...

I seen alot of these kinda things in shows...never expect it to happen to me though.

Today is the 2nd day of the wake...or turning 3rd. My dad told me that i was her favourite grandchild and i didnt know how to handle that...it started coming again... A Christian service was held followed by a Catholic one...

During e Christian service which was in Chinese, the pastor said that dying is like moving house. Except that this time, u skip the hassle of looking for a nice place, worrying about future neighbours and having to pack and unpack and getting everything messy. Moving to this place called Heaven which is so beautiful and everyone is so nice...

I guess my grandma's soul would be very very happy too, and we have to be happy for her.