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MmmZ...was thinking i should blog suddenly

anyways...gonna elaborate about the past 3 years...or 3.5years..

Was thinking back during the sec school days when studies didnt really matter...i did loads of partying...wasted precious time.. Till i kinda screwed up my olevels....

I remember that during those days...i didnt really bother looking at the textbook...i just studied blankly and sometimes didnt learn a thing...i could day dream during lessons... boycott myself from classes... However i didnt hate going to school because my friends were there... I only liked free period...i was happy when teachers were absent not knowing that it would affect me later on.

I wanted to be rich when i grow up...but i didnt know what i wanted to do... Till i screwed up my olevels...Result day came and i stared blankly at the paper...i thought i'd do pretty well because my prelims werent that bad. Still, the results proved one thing...that i got too complacent and took things for granted. Thats when my life changed again. ( Because sec 1 and 2, i put effort wanting to start afresh from PSLE which i also kinda screwed it up )

I have this problem of being complacent... i get over confident whenever i get too good a grade...
and would just not bother about future test thinking that i will do well again.

So i didnt have many choices for a course in the poly.

Anyways, at that point of time...i had totally given up. I didnt really party much...just stayed at home...did nothing...soon after i thought to myself that i wanted to prove my family & friends wrong that i wasnt that dumb.

So i just chose mechatronics engineering cuz i always wanted to enter an engineering course...mechatronics then seems such a cool name to me...and it still is now. Thats why i didnt regret choosing it..but thats not the whole point...

Anyways...i studied hard during my poly days...i realised that the class i entered wasnt too good...that was a huge headstart i had...having A.maths background...which soon of them dont...i found most of the first year topic somewhat similar to what i had studied...But i needed practice cuz i kinda suck at A.maths in sec sch... But it all came back to me once i started practicing my maths...i took other modules like mechanics and its all maths and physics related which i really dig.

I did pretty well for my tests and exams...and my classmates came to me for help...thats the first time i had that kinda experience...It made me worked even harder...

So I made pretty good friends in poly...however we didnt hang out as much... But there were a bunch of nerds in my class..they paid attention...but their results kinda sucked..except for one of them...so i treated him as competition. Its like between first and second.

So as each year passed, i lost many of my classmates and good friends...they couldent pass certain modules therefore our schedules changed...I found out that once u are behind others...its very hard to catch up. That made me even more keen to work harder.

However, besides studying and getting good grades, i realised that i wanted a balanced life...I started treating myself by clubbing, going out, having fun. I worked too...to get the experience of working life as well as get some extra cash. Life now started to have meaning and i am fufilling it when it made sense to me.

I did well for my streaming and i chose MEMS as my final module...MEMS = Micro Electro Mechanical Systems....I chose the project 2 Axis Force Balance for Wind Tunnel which is under my current supervisor Mr Cheah Choo Lek.

I got kinda stuck at first..kinda screwing up panel presentations by panel presentations... He didnt want to help us... I felt that he gave us a target and gave us instructions to meet that target...But we didnt know what he wanted cuz whenever we tried he would disagree...However we made it finally and our project did pretty well for the Final VIVA...which made me so happy!

Being able to prove to a panel of judges that u have done ur project sucessfully is an amazing feeling because they shoot you with questions...and u have to answer them...

Thanks to that excessive reading he told me to do...it made me confident to answer them.

Right now...its the last semester... I dont want to screw this up. I want to get into a Uni...by all means because now i know what i want to do in the future...That is, to be able to open a club...and i wanna spin inside my own club!

I have a New Year's Resolution for 2006! and that is to buy a mixer and turntables and learn how to spin. That feeling of having a crowd dancing and cheering to your music, i feel could be the same as what from the final VIVA... Furthermore...I love music...and its a passion for me to spin.

About relationships wise...i had a few good memories as well as a few unpleasant ones... But now i am single till some girl comes and sweep me away from my feet. MmmZ...but yea...no intention to finding a girl because i am having so much fun, loaded and not tied down to another unnecessaray commitment. Thats if the girl isnt really ALWAYS independent...