OCS Patrol Field Camp

One of the gruesome 2days 1 night field camps....its mentally draining. We didnt get much sleep due to planning and all. I was made section commander for one patrol mission and i didnt finish the ops order in time. And cuz of that...LTA Foong stripped me of my rank. I was really upset because I was gonna finish and everything i did went down the drain. My mood turned after that. I tried my best then...but i guess it wasnt good enough. Sigh...

After that....during the patrol...i ND-ed. That made things worse. I was gone that night. I fucked care everything because of that. I even cried cuz they didnt believe i checked clear.

I guess i am being picked on by the instructors. Demoralized...Its like they are looking for every chance to fuck me good. I dont know why, but it seems everything i do, i always end up getting fucked even though its right.