Shes Leaving..
Who?...Joann...sobZ...shes one i consider as a really gd friend?...but shes leaving to do her Ph.D in neurobiology...super smart huh?
We went to The Line on 1st Aug 06....i think thats gonna be our last 'date' together. And throughout these 'dates'...i found her getting more and more amusing... Its really strange cuz usually the girls would show their true colours by the 2nd or 3rd date...but no...its like her true colours are actually making me want to go out with her again!
I asked her this qn. And i was so amazed... Goes like this
A : Do you enjoy your job?
J : Yea very much.
A : Why? its like more than 50% of Singaporeans hate their jobs.
J : Its because my dream is to help mankind. Though mankind is killing itself...the least i can do is help them. Even if i dont find the cure for aids or anything, I would still feel satisfied about it because i would be helping the next person find it.
A : You are like Ms Universe man...
Thats really noble man...i mean everyone is in it for the money...mostly. Most of our passion dosent pay off...however her passion is to help mankind and i think the thing that pays her off most is mankind's benefit itself!
I am happy and sad that shes leaving...happy cuz shes gonna do something she likes and of cuz attain a higher qualification. Sad because i terribly miss her...even as i type this blog...the amout of words is like equilivent to the amout i miss her...mmm on a scale of 1-10?...which means its over the limit already. Haha...
Is this attraction? i often ask myself.... I mean I love having this relationship with her as a gd friend...She tells me I am the only guy friend that keeps a platonic relationship... But i feel good about it. I mean i had never ever had any designs on her before... But i wanna see her more after each time we meet.
Whats true love? I feel true love is when you forget about yourself and put yourself into another person's shoe and see the things he/she sees... Putting aside time to spend time with him/her even if schedule is packed etc. Making deep sacrifices for that person.
I am skeptical about wooing good friends...Cuz if something bad happens if we hit it off...things would never be the same again... Sigh. I dont wanna lose a good friend.
However, this has kept me wondering from time and again... Why is it that someone whos gonna get a Ph.D would want to hang out with a regular poly student... Its my honour to be her friend man... but sometimes i feel that i am not good enough for her. However, she has never ever put me in a situation where i felt small and unimportant. Shes pretty good at listening attentively and giving really gd comments.
Shes always telling me 'Angels by your side' before i go to bed... I would smile and think...arent u the angel?
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