Sneek Peek Reviews

The day grandma left. 20th Dec 07 - 93years old

2007-12-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

I was in e living room happily playing my new PS3 when Mom suddenly called for me to go into grandma's rm quick...went in, i saw her mouth opened as though gasping for air but she was still...eyes closed. Immediately, i felt for a pulse...there was one...i checked the breathing, there wasnt any...soon after i felt for another pulse...this time it faded and soon after, it went off...my mom and maid were beside me and i turned to them and shook my head.

Immediately, (Lana) my maid started bursting into tears...it took me a while to register..."i have actually lost someone who has been with me almost my entire life" i told my mom to inform everyone to come back quick...cuz they left in the late afternoon after praying over her.

I felt for grandma's hands...they were really cold...and just sat there and cried. Its been a long time since i cried.. Not everyday u see someone at their deathbed and this time i actually seen someone go away... It was peaceful i guess..

My Dad came home first..with uncle Martin and aunty Clara. He immediately kneeled down and started talking to her in cantonese...den he burst out into tears...then came aunty Betty and then the rest of the aunties...

I seen alot of these kinda things in shows...never expect it to happen to me though.

Today is the 2nd day of the wake...or turning 3rd. My dad told me that i was her favourite grandchild and i didnt know how to handle that...it started coming again... A Christian service was held followed by a Catholic one...

During e Christian service which was in Chinese, the pastor said that dying is like moving house. Except that this time, u skip the hassle of looking for a nice place, worrying about future neighbours and having to pack and unpack and getting everything messy. Moving to this place called Heaven which is so beautiful and everyone is so nice...

I guess my grandma's soul would be very very happy too, and we have to be happy for her.

Unit life

2007-09-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

Finally half of my army is gone...now its the other half...spent in unit...

Well i've been in training for 1 year already...BMT, OCS, BMC and yea...now i am finally posted to seletar camp as a medic. Well what i can say is this...Unit life is certainly very different from trainee...there is no fixed time to wake up, only schedules to follow, deadlines to finish tasks and stuff like that.

As for me, i am in HQ...doing medical cover and some other shit clerical work which i dont think i shd be doing...but oh wells...anyways I would say its much more slack...But I kinda miss the life of a trainee...The ties we make and the bonds that can never be broken. Though we follow the daily regiments, thats what makes us better friends, cuz we suffer together, have a common understanding and all...

Over at the unit, u are on your own...though it may be more slack.. but there isnt anyone to remind u of what u hafta do anymore cuz u are on your own.. ARGH I WANNA ORD! >.<

The Fragility of Life

2007-09-14T01:59:00.000+08:00

Just last week, we were on the way to Zouk in a cab when i heard about the tragic news of BoonYong's dad. Ruiwen was telling me about it and how he was put into this guilt trip when everyone partied while he didnt turn up when it happened.

The gang and I went down to NUH just now to visit him. Luckily, his dad would not suffer any permanent disabilities considering the fact a pipe by the weight of TONS came tumbling down on him. He was in a bubbly state when we got there.. Feeling nervous as i entered the room first, i peeked meekly into the room and I could sense that he was happy to have visitors though we werent close to him at all... Well at least me. I mean thats what brathers are for... and i spell it brAthers cuz thats the name we gave ourselves.

There was a bangala next to his bed... Now this guy is another poor thing. I felt so sorry for him cuz no.1, no one visited him ever since he was admitted. no.2 ( He fell from a lorry or smth ) The Bastard driver didnt even bother to see how is he.

BoonYong's dad, although went through 2 major operations was joking around with him... He told us that e bangala had no appetite to eat...and at night, he was clutching his stomach cuz of gastric... So he asked how much he earned per mth...Bangala replied 400bucks...n he told e bangala, 1 night here costs u 220...u 2 days already exceed ur pay. The bangala immediately gobbled down his food. But he was so poor thing, that we saw him crying himself to sleep... Deprived from knowing if anyone ever cared for him... that really has to suck big time. No one deserves that kinda treatment man..

Well i guess this is a lesson learnt... No matter how minor a case, we shdnt take it lightly no matter what. This has taught me how frail a person's life can be...I guess at the medical center, probably we gotta stop scrutinizing e patient from head to toe to see if he is malingering or not but let the doctor decide...

The Medics of Platoon 3

2007-08-29T23:21:00.003+08:00

OCS Training

2007-08-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

The End of a Chapter...N the start of another.

2007-08-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

At last...i am a medic to be...did i tell u i got posted to e medic course btw?....Anyways...today was our graduation...Finally the end of a chapter...and the start of another. The end of trainee life, end of instructors feeding you with a spoon. Its real now, whatever we do.. Be it going for cover for a simple exercise to a rescue mission, its real time now.

It sort of dawned on me that this was gonna happen...Responsibilities..What makes it worse is that its gonna be lives I'll be dealing with. Hopefully i wont get to confront such cases, however if i do... I wanna make sure i'll be prepared for it.

I was kinda sad to leave the friends i made the past 9 weeks...though we werent really the best of friends, it was still fun to have them around. I guess we didnt go through enough hardship like the ones me and my other friends from OCS did..

Some sort of remorse had came into me too because i felt that the pride wasnt there anymore..Hopefully I can get an 8 - 5 vocation =X The rest of them will be commissioned in 2 wks time...8th sept...1 year exactly after i enlist...After this...1 more year until i fuck off and get to uni!

Ever wondered why?

2007-06-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

I always walk down town n the thing i see which disses me off the most is a CHICK with an ugly guy! And i think to myself...why does she fall in love with him and how does it do it?

Few reasons i can deduce to are these...

1) The guy is rich...loads of ugly skunks get chicks as their gf's cuz they are rich...Comeon...dont tell me girls arent materialistic.. i dont think so... I see them splurging credit cards of them richies... Which pisses me most. A few girls told me, i am not the materialistic sort...well balls to u. Its just a delusion u got in ur head... Dont lie.

2) The guy is just a dumbshit...That falls into a category of stupid idiots spending their hard earned money on girls out there...Well i cant say much but i guess its true...Guys are visual creatures...Looks always come first.. Thats why i hear so many such "first love" cases... Urgh...

3) The guy is a sweet-talker... okay these are the people i really respect most. U're nt too good looking but u make the most of ur other traits like the gift of the gap. Which works on alot of girls...however these poor bunch...well i dont see them relationship last without money... It always boils down to my first point where girls are materialistic.

Okay okay...enough said about this topic... Lets move on... theres another type of group...nt so good looking couples together...now ever wondered why?... Lets see.. Now these are hard to define...but heres my 2 cents worth.

1) They were prolly childhood lovers... No doubt these relationships lasted since they were kids...Its something really rare...I myself, forgotten the chick whom i always stole glances when i had the chance when i was young...I thought i could really take things on to the next stage...blah.

2) They prolly go for the heart...BUT they were once friends... It cant be a first love sorta thing... I really do not agree for the fact that a guy can fall in love with a girl that has a distorted face or smth...neither could a girl vice versa. Character of each other's personalities drew them together and yea! poof! u got a couple.

I really feel that there is rarely true love now...considering our generation where kids are so spoilt... Love comes with a price... A chick comes with a price.... How much are u willing to spend on a date with the girl u like determines how much she will want to come out with u for the 2nd date? Entertainment comes with a price...i doubt a walk in the park or going downstairs her block hawker stall to eat wanton mee is gonna make a very good first impression...

E life of an OOC Cadet

2007-04-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

pretty fun i guess...haha everyday is a nights out day...and plus! we go out everyday...just that some of us are gonna leave Charlie Wing soon...sigh...when the wing's on lull...life's so wonderful... Just wanna nua thru the whole NS life now since whatever i am doing is without a purpose... But well...i chose that path...re-course is just going to be a waste of my time...i have no interest to start from scratch.

This thing which has been running in my head lately...am i like childish or smth man...i dont know...driving me nuts...

OOC

2007-03-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

So this is the end of my journey in OCS i guess... I went for the performance review board...had an interview with Colonel Ong...well much as i thought...or expected...it wasnt an interview... It was more like an interrogation. Its ever since i misfired..the amount of shit i have been dealing with from the instructors was hell. This is a vicious place whereby they dont give a chance for the mistakes u made. Its like one misfire and u are condemned. Well i thought to myself fine...if thats the way, then i should just take it. Actually, i feel happy to leave this place...but sad that i let my parents down... i wanted them to see me getting commissioned on the parade square.. Guess it wont happen.

Plus...all my friends whom had faith in me..i've let them down. Its a shame lah...but hopefully i gain something from this and i hope i made the right decision. Besides...the school instructor is really a turn off...cant stand his fucking attitude. My PC, CPT Jason hasnt been a great help too. Hes damm sacarstic when we ask him for help...plus my instructors...Sigh...anyways...a new beginning. i still have 1 and a half years more to clear. So i hope i can just breeze by these. Now my only worry is about my application to the university...hows it gonna affect my chances.

Feel kinda sian that i am leaving this place...but i dont know...its been...somewhat fun lah. Hopefully i get to go home soon...Now i'm able to do something more useful instead of chiong-suaing up a stupid hill or something.

Double kill

2007-03-08T09:01:00.000+08:00

One of the harsher days in Charlie wing...yesterday was our Ex Skylark and Ex Nightbird. navigation exercise in day and night....using the air photo...but however...the wing practically used the map to navigate...i have to admit. Some of us were spotted by CPT Iskandar and we got Fucked big time. As for me...i got fucked by CPT Jason again for putting a cigrette in my mouth. Cant take it anymore...i was walking with a stick in my mouth and i got fucked for that...i mean wtf man....and fucked by APC LTA Zaoxiang for not securing my map...when a billion other people didnt. I mean whats the point? if i didnt lose the map at the end of the day...it shows that i am responsible enough isnt it? He says what...its an attitude and integrity problem... i dont get a single word.

CPT Iskandar fucked the whole wing nicely by giving us pumping and making us touch a tree and stuff like that within time limits because we didnt show a sense of urgency. Some cadets also used a stick to walk thru the jungle which i dont see a problem with...i dont know why are they so particular with this...Its just a fucking stick for fuck's sake.

Some cadets got scolded in front of CPT Jason by Hotel Wing 2IC and he got really mad. That night when we went back...another nice round of pumping. first was 5mins FBO fall in...den it was pumping in FBO den it was everything in and out within 1min or smth...den change to PT kit...den more pumping etc. Shacked out...i slept like a log man.

2 CPTs giving 2 different punishment...really a double kill. Its a fucking irony because i dont see them practicing what they preach. Like take for example...Handling tools etc...i dont see them using proper equipment...yet they tell us to go by the books.

And it seems like i am getting picked on now... i seriously dont know how long can i last in this shithole. Treated like a fucking dog everyday. Every Fucking Day.

CNY Dinner @ OCS and CNY after Patrol Field camp.

2007-03-06T07:05:00.000+08:00

So wing comm decided to charge me after CNY...Thank God he let me enjoy the 4days out. I was so happy...I made full use of my time. I utilized every second. That includes doing the AOP Homework. Urgh...CNY dinner at OCS was pretty cool. We had steamboat and everyone was happy... My wing comm is such a nice person and i really look up to him. That night...i went to Hacienda for drinks and chilled with the group. Dill and Jeremy started a company called PlanetFootball...haha.. So it was fun.

Next day was reunion dinner..i went to town early to get myself a pair of shoes with Youchao and Aloner. Another Nike SB Zoom Tre! woohoo! I bought it with Youchao so we could get a discount together. Admond was there but he left us...So we were chilling outside macs and i saw Ching with his gf...talked abit and we all headed home after.

Reunion dinner was on that night. Good food and it gets better as the years go by. Guess when we grow older...we get to appreciate food more. I miss home cooked food now... Did some catching up with my cousins and all. Evelyn's doing pretty well...heard shes making good money.

After that was a catchup with Abiram...Both of us only. Hes leaving for aust to study Medicine on friday. Dang...i am gonna miss him...6 long years...sigh. We went to liquid kitchen at gardens and had a good talk bout the good old days in sec school and stuff like that.

Next day was CNY Day 1! i went to Grandma's house...get ang pows! haha...after which we went to grandaunt's house...more ang pows! Went home after that...MORE ANGPOWS! Dad's side came over to visit grandma...

In the evening...we went over to Kenneth's house at pasir ris...Me, Bryan, Barry and Shann...we went to W.network first to collect Bryan's pay...had a drink there...went to Ken's house...had another fabolous home cooked dinner by his mom. After that...was 10.45pm where me and Bryan headed to Muddy Murpheys to meet Marcus and Sara whos leaving the next day to aust to have a couple of beers and then to Fashion Bar. Spent a couple of hundreds on drinks that day. Had a real good time haha...

Next day was day 2...went to Aunty sally's house with all the W.network guys to have a wonderful lunch! i miss her curry man...>.< in the evening was at Youchao's house...loads of chicks there...At night was spent at Bryan's house catching a couple of DVDs...mainly simpsons...haha

Now its

OCS Platoon Field Camp. Ex - Zebra & Ex - Spade

2007-03-06T06:44:00.000+08:00

Platoon field camp came..this time its attack and defence. I was made section commander again...i dont know why i always tio those fucked up appointments. Okay lah i mean its good to learn. I wanna learn more...but why do i always get fucked when they give me those appointments? some of the guys dont even know shit but they think i am the only one. Jian Ming this guy said he didnt know if he could smoke thru platoon field camp..i was thinking to myself wtf? This guy dosent know shit..but he dosent get marked...blur most of the time and he gets away with it. WTF?

And LTA Terrance likes fucking me i dont know why...i did my drills correctly wad...only except on one danger area where i deployed wrongly cuz PC gave me the wrong direction. and its my fault?

Really sian lah... His words are really demoralizing cuz he makes u feel like u are the lowest shitbag in the world. He can go be a critic judging Singapore Idol or smth.

And for Ex - Spade, i was made Platoon Sergeant being in charge of the stores. Den CPT Jason immediately said the Platoon Commander was down and I had to take over this time. Den i was snooked cuz i suddenly had to take over. And everyone else was down except 3men. WTF Shd i do? i mean how does he want me to re-org my men when i have so little?

Dont know lah...den another time i got fucked was when Nelson Fong lost the bloody igniter for the tripflare...and cuz i was PS, i get fucked again. i mean i issued him the trip flare and i told him specifcally not to lose anything...and he has to go lose smth...

Also, the platoon lost 1 dummy claymore and 3HDEP rounds...and I get fucked again. I told the platoon to do an equipment check before they left the area and no one sounded out they lost anything. So when we came back..and we found out we lost smth...CPT Jason seemed to be putting the blame on me. I really dont get their point man...Does that mean if one of us lose smth...The instructors get fucked as well? cuz they didnt ensure?

Usually we just do a personal equipment check when the PS gives out an instruction...and i did that...but still i get fucked. Luckily they found everything back. Thank God...

Also during Spade...This fucker Jeremy was smoking thru all the way. He didnt help dig shit. Cuz the platoon HQ consists of PC,PS,Runner and Medic. So usually PC has to run about and i give in to that. PS, runner and medic digs the command post. That fucker only dig his shellscrape and claimed he was sick after that. Fucked up. Left me and Matt to dig...and its not easy i tell u.

Both of us were really shacked out while he was sitting there...i told him to report to the medic but that fucker said, " Dont want lah...i report already will recover." I was thinking...since u say u will recover...why not report and then help us out...fucked up right? He's going to artillery so he fuck cares everything now. really a bastard. Everyone thinks hes so great cuz he was some big fuck in NCC...So fucking what? i dont give a shit who u were last time...Now we are in the same boat so u dont fucking bring ur weight from last time and try to slam it down on us.

They found a blank in his ammo pouch after declaration..i hope he gets charged otherwise it wouldent be fair to Justin...

OCS Patrol Field Camp

2007-03-06T06:39:00.000+08:00

One of the gruesome 2days 1 night field camps....its mentally draining. We didnt get much sleep due to planning and all. I was made section commander for one patrol mission and i didnt finish the ops order in time. And cuz of that...LTA Foong stripped me of my rank. I was really upset because I was gonna finish and everything i did went down the drain. My mood turned after that. I tried my best then...but i guess it wasnt good enough. Sigh...

After that....during the patrol...i ND-ed. That made things worse. I was gone that night. I fucked care everything because of that. I even cried cuz they didnt believe i checked clear.

I guess i am being picked on by the instructors. Demoralized...Its like they are looking for every chance to fuck me good. I dont know why, but it seems everything i do, i always end up getting fucked even though its right.

OCS Section Field Camp

2007-01-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

So we just finished the long dreaded section field camp...5 days and 4 sleepless nights...or actually we slept like a pig. Had different exercises and drills...but navigation...thats the worst... Doing exercise greensleeves was a killer...plus carrying FBO around Tekong wasnt exactly paradise. Ex Tenderfoot was worse...we went to see "Windmills" ( Got Lost ) at the start of the first part. But we got used to it...biggest achievement? Our section being the only section using a blind map got the other instructors impressed...cuz we were able to plot our own roads etc. ^^

Battle drills was fun too...but very tiring... I was sect commander for ambush...got fucked left right center by LTA Foong. SianZ...but i took it well and got the act together.. Best part...stupid trip flare didnt start off cuz the arming device spoilt.. WTF man....after all the hard work setting up the tripflare... Argh...

But back finally...I SURVIVED!

Oh and how does a gold in IPPT sound? Good? CUZ I GOT IT! Now i am in the premium club!!! which gets to enjoy attractive previliges! LOL

The A4 Skyhawk

2007-01-14T05:46:00.000+08:00

Quote

2007-01-14T05:40:00.000+08:00

Watch your thoughts,
They become words.

Watch your words,
They become actions.

Watch your actions,
They become habits.

Watch your habits,
They become character.

Watch your character,
They become your Destiny.

OCS Service Term

2007-01-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

The time where cadets get hell from everyone. Everything is controlled, fast paced...i dont know if i can cope. Hanging on there...>.<

Its been a long time since i blogged... Cuz i dont have the time! Everytime i get to bookout, first things first...i will go out!

But i believe by the end of this 9mths, or actually service term, its gonna be easier for us. Like they say... The lowest lifeforms in SAF... Got my allowance liao...Woo Hoo!!! 924 dey! and i believe its because i worked out every ounce of my mind and muscle for it!..

Next week is Sectional Field camp...At Tekong >.<...sighs... confirm another week of hell. At least this week wasnt too bad...signalling seems pretty easy...well the tests and stuff... piece of cake for me... Perhaps i studied throughout the night for it. But its worth it...that feeling.

Now theres a bloody HP ban in Charlie wing...Fucked up...damm sian...i cant even call out if i have admin time now.

Damm sian...but things i am looking forward to...BBQ night...week after section field camp.

Cadets social night!!!... End of service term. I need a date! A hot date! Joann>.<

OCS - >.< -

2006-12-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

Okay i got my posting already...I made it to OCS...now i'm wondering if its the right move. 9 months of shit. Reservice till 45 years old. How lah....>.<....Alfred just OOC cuz he fell dislocated his shoulder. What if i survive 8 months and some shit happens? It would all go down the drain man.

Okay so for 9 months of pain and hardship...but a lifetime of honour and glory. Big deal...i can make more money if i dont go OCS. Anyways I am glad i made it in...this means that i have succeeded in my application. Airforce told me, if i wanted to be a pilot, i would hafta make it to OCS first...and its hard to make it in...I still have no idea how i made it in. I remember fucking this guy up during my situational test cuz he was being an asshole and my facilitator was looking. But still i got quite high for it...Apparantly that guy i fucked, is also condemned by the rest of the detail. Haha..I just helped them out.

I dont know why but i like to put people in their place. The only ones that can put me in my place is Joann, Barry and Bryan. LoL... I think i shut up whenever they bang their fist on e table.

Only another guy from my platoon made it in. Urgh...its sad cuz most of them went to sispec. Some even better.. 8 - 5...there isnt even stay in. I thought to myself either its ALL or NOTHING... Now i have the ALL... Might as well make the best out of it. They have a high percentage of dropouts cuz of the training and mental torture.

However Warrant Ee told us this before... We guys thought we couldent survive BMT, but we did in the end...so how did it do it?...up here...( In our heads )

Okay...so i will try to adapt as fast as i can... Hopefully i'd enjoy it.

Joann & I...its taken at PS. Isnt she just sweet?

2006-12-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

Ken Bryan Barry & I....we went wild already >.<

2006-12-15T04:20:00.000+08:00

Ken Kevin & I At work!!! NO GOVERNMENT!

2006-12-15T04:19:00.000+08:00

Retarded Pic of Ken & Bryan LOL

2006-12-15T04:18:00.000+08:00

One of my best days of the year!

2006-12-15T03:54:00.000+08:00

On Par with the day i went to Shangri La...i think today was really wonderful. Its one of the best days i had since army begun.. Or in fact...my life. Its memories like these that would be kept close to the heart. With Joann, my angel o.*....and cousins and friends at work...

Joann & I spent e afternoon together...well basically doing nothing much but still! Seeing her already makes me elated! Its good to have her back...even for 3 weeks...But i doubt i'd see her again. Its sad though to see someone only once when shes back for3 weeks...and then u cant see her until another year.. Sighs. But oh wells, I am just really happy that i got to see her bubbly, cheery face again! Well shes grown slimmer? Hotter definately! Haha Its like wow...>.< And she love e paintings! Luckily! Hey if u're reading this...mmmZ when u told me about not being late and stuff and u would be angry if i were late? I really rushed down all e way k? I unplugged my Ipod and left my com to off by its own and dashed out of the house! Thats how anxious i was! Cant afford to let e angel wait could i?

Went to work today...and we stayed back. Barry, Bryan, Kenneth and I....had drinks and we went mad! We talked about stuff like the 3 most essential things we shd have in life?...i chose money, education and love. While bryan was Money, time and love?...Ken was Money, happiness and love. And lastly Barry, friends, family health. After hearing Ken's one...i feel that yea...i think happiness is a good one. Family and friends are a need too! So if i could have another chance to say...it would be Happiness, family and friends. Cuz it all boils down to these 3.

However love is secondary though. Who can afford to love someone else when he isnt happy or when there isnt the basic FAMILY to start off with...

Oh wells...I really had a great day. Really.. :)

Zoukout!

2006-12-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

Zoukout this year round was really good! It just keeps getting better and better. My second zoukout and wow! i am amazed that they keep coming up with such power events man! Even Jazzy! Jazzy was really unique this time round! His scratching was godly, and so freaking original... E retro arena was awesome! Its just like another mambo night...except that the dj wasnt really popular. But who gives a shit! good music begets good mood! I was dancing like crazy!

Next zoukout...I'm all out for it!

Bronco Platoon 4 Sentosa Outing

2006-12-11T00:25:00.000+08:00

Bronco Sentosa outing! after POP

2006-12-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

Spent e morning - afternoon at Palawan beach today... getting a tan and playing beach soccer and freesbie...( not sure how to spell ) anyways....yea... Had hell lot of fun. With my platoon mates of cuz. i Guess we wanna spend more time with each other before we go our separate ways. It was fruitful. Most of em turned up. Left early though... ^^

Saying goodbye to Sgt Ken

2006-12-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

Bronco Coy POP

2006-12-09T04:44:00.002+08:00

Group Pic Platoon 4 Section 3 ( Bronco Coy POP )

2006-12-09T04:44:00.001+08:00

In a file ( Passing out Parade )

2006-12-09T04:44:00.000+08:00

POP ( Sgt Mike )

2006-12-09T04:28:00.000+08:00

POP ( Warrant Ee )

2006-12-09T04:26:00.000+08:00

POP ( Sgt Zairi )

2006-12-09T04:25:00.000+08:00

POP

2006-12-09T04:12:00.000+08:00

Finally a private...6th Dec 2006. However, its saddening to leave Tekong. This is when hell starts for all of us. When we are no longer innocent recruits. Staying in Tekong was definately a memorable one. Now, we go our separate ways. Hopefully to meet the ones we know when we go to our respective units.

The days in Tekong were controlled not by us, but by our commanders. Though we hate others overwhelming us, we still laugh about it and have fun along the way. I could see our sarges' faces as we left. They were sad alright.

I wouldent mind going thru that shit again... cuz luckily for me, i am blessed with such good buddies. Sighs... So happy, yet so sad.

12 days of BMT

2006-12-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

On the 1st day of BMT my sergeant gave to me
A chao ah gua as my buddy

On the 2nd day of BMT my sergeant gave to me
2 basha sticks and a chao ah gua as my buddy

On the 3rd day of BMT my sergeant gave to me
3 tent pins, 2 basha sticks and a chao ah gua as my buddy

On the 4th day of BMT my sergeant gave to me
4 combat boots, 3 tent pins, 2 basha sticks and a chao ah gua as my buddy

5th day - 5 counts of four
6th day - 6 chin ups
7th day - 7 days of field camp
8th day - 8km road march
9th day - 9.30 admin
10th day - 10.30 lights out
11th day - 11 obstacles
12th day - 12minutes twenty

Chao recruit song

2006-12-02T18:51:00.000+08:00

When i was just a chao recruit
I asked my sergeant, what will i be
Will i be PC, will i be OC
Guess what he said to me

Balls to you recruit
whatever will be will be
your futures' not mine to see
drop twenty for me

When i pass out from OCS
I saw my sergeant, walking to me
He said good morning, how do you do?
Guess what i said to him

Balls to you sergeant
i remember you tekan me
but now i'm your PC
sign extra for me

After 5 days, section 3 food rations.

2006-12-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

The Peeps!

2006-12-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

Bang! I tio again.

2006-12-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

Group Pic! Rec Night!

2006-12-02T17:08:00.000+08:00

Me! after 24km road march

2006-12-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

Group Pic right after 24km road march!

2006-12-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

The 24 km road march!

2006-12-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

It started out in the afternoon...on Thursday. We had like 3 water parades hourly before the march started. Having to go to the toilet every 5mins...i grabbed my balls and rifle and tried to hold my pee while they were debriefing us. Then it started, after an entire school warmup. It was about 3pm then...under scorching heat, it seemed that the "air-con" in my helmet had turned up a notch.

I was platoon song IC and never once did i left the platoon without a song in order for them not to feel tired.. Our first pit stop was at the old Sispec parade square. It was really hot and we had a water parade. Could see everyone, even sergeants and commanders scurrying towards the shade.

15 mins later...We were told to put everything on and off we headed to Sanyongkong camp. This time round, the stupid terrain was rocky... and really really muddy. Urgh. The second 4 km was hell because of the terrain and heat. I paced the song according to the steps but could see that everyone was getting to be really tired. The response to the song was getting softer and softer.

We reached the second checkpoint opp. a training shed in Sanyongkong camp. It was fucking hot cuz this time round, there wasnt any shade. And it was like the expressway there cuz of the bloody mosquitoes. I could clap my hand and easily kill one.

It started to rain toward the end of our 15min break! Our spirits brightened this time! we headed off doing the infantry roar! Funny, we hit each other's backpacks and did it... We were the last company and last platoon of the entire school to head off. This time round, i made my way to the back and chatted with Sgts Uzairi, Jon and Lawrance. They were okay and for the first time, Lawrance wasnt being such an asshole. Sgt Zairi was shacked and this time, we "suaned" him by telling him "Oie sgt, look at us, we also carrying fullpack. we still recruits can take it"... but we were shacked as well lol..... Cuz he kept telling us that before... so time for his own medicine lol.

We reached Sispec again, this time for our dinner. It was getting dark already but we got western! Upon reaching, i got the platoon to chant out what we might get for dinner. So we guessed western! den kept chanting "western" with this tune that never dies. Then we were guessing brocolli for vege! and we chanted that...and really came out brocolli! LoL....
Our OC got us kit kat too! and we had a can of 100plus! ice cold! happy like fuck!

Then we took off to the malay village... This time we sang cartoon songs... from adams family, scooby doo, flinstones, batman, starwars all the way to classical tunes like Mozart. >.<
We played a game too... goes like... i hafta say a phrase...and the next guy has to come up with another phrase to rhyme with the last word of my phrase. and he gets a time limit. Its really fun! None of us got tired with playing that.

We came to the malay village...and let down everything. plonked ourselves onto our webbing and sat there awhile. Oh yah..me, jon, jek and eechuan were in front of Cougar Coy. And we were discussing a song....that 12 days of xmas song and we changed the lyrics...really funny.

And we started to sing that song on our 16-20th km back to Sispec. Looks like we visited sispec loads of times...urgh...tekong is really small...we just walk around it only.

This time we were kinda tired on the 20th km and 5th pit stop. But we didnt give up! so on the last 4km, we took out our whistles and started to sing. Our company was super kp. Sing all the funny pop songs. From aerosmith to savage garden. All the gay boybands were brought up again. And we made it back. Not a single one fell out from the march and it was a complete success.

After marching 24km...walking anywhere is no problem...it almost seems that we are flying without wings!!!

How i wish i could turn the hands of time...

2006-11-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

How i wished i could turn the hands of time... to stop this asphyxia thats choking me. Tied to the ground by NS and bearing the long wait for her to come back. To continue my studies... To get rich!... Sigh-

On the other hand...I am enjoying my life right now. I enjoy the things that are givin to me like NS....But i dont wanna lead an army life :( However, I could see the perks if i turned the clock clockwise... I see her here...i see myself more carefree... i see myself working to supplement myself... At least with a better pay...Or it could be down at Melbourne Uni....Hopefully.

An avg Singaporean lives up to the age of 68 and goes....lets see...if I turned the clock 6 years later...i wont really know where i see myself or what i see myself as...Prolly let time take its pace...

Okay shit i m typing crap now...><....

2 more Weeks...

2006-11-18T17:41:00.000+08:00

Aight...so it was IPPT on friday right...and guess what niggaS! I Attained Silver Hell YEA!!! Now all i need is the green light to enter OCS. Well at least it would be something I achieve in army life. That feeling would be great! 2 more weeks to POP. Till then, we would still be chao recruits! Cracking jokes and living like kids. We laugh hard EVERYDAY! i have no idea why...BUT WE DO!

Communal living isnt too bad i guess. But the hardest part is the freaking toilets...they build 3 cubicles with toilet bowls. The rest we hafta squat. And people would rather wait for the toilet bowls to Bronco instead of squat. No choice...Sighs.

But i would miss my BMT life. I thought of the last day, when i first entered Tekong. That night, i thought to myself... Why am i stuck in this place....." I would make the best of this " Sighs...2wks till we go separate ways. I really hope i dont lose most of my platoon mates..

Lets see...Threw a grenede...and it rocked BIG TIME! Another one of the most memorable experience in my life. 4 hours of waiting for just 6 seconds till explosion. But it was worth it!

Miss u!

2006-11-12T15:58:00.000+08:00

Joann if u read this, note that I am going nuts over here. Heh... Miss u loads! Now that was pretty cheesy..

Live Range Reflections

2006-11-12T15:57:00.000+08:00

Live range is like Purgatory. We practically do nothing but wait and rot the whole day. Well, the shooting part is fun though, but the commanders kept shouting at us. Try concentrating to take aim when u have 20 seconds which is your own time and target and someone is screaming at you from behind. Not easy.

Day shooting is fun as it is much easier to hit the target and taking aim doesn’t require too much time. Apparently, the standing posture was the easiest for me this time instead of the foxhole position. The target seemed bigger than the IMT targets.

Night shooting didn’t go too well because we were all hot and uncomfortable after waiting a good 6 – 7 hours plus? However we got to fire tracer rounds which were pretty cool like Star Wars! It was definitely harder to hit the target this time round because targets were dark and hard to define. Silhouetted targets were still visible while the small blinking targets were hard to lock on. My eyes would get blurry and it made it even harder to hit the target.

About IA: Once we encounter an IA, we practically lose a round because some of them could actually be dented. Not taking chances, we had no choice but to give up that round. IA 4 times and poof! No more marksmen. Plus, the remedying IA takes time. By the time we remedied one, the target might have gone down.

Funny occasions when we saw wild boars and the way our commanders dealt with them. Fortunately the wild boars weren’t aggressive and no one got hurt.

Overall views on range are that it was an experience no one had before. I would love to go again, but only at the IMT theatre this time. =P

Situational Test Reflections

2006-11-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

Situational test...somewhat like field camp. Except its not such a hassle because it lasts only 3 days. We took off early for our 12km road march whereby the last 4km was unbearable. Upon reaching reclaimed land, we had to set up bashas and the admin stuff. I was lucky and got to sit in the rover which drove us off to another place to set up the admin tentage.

So day 1 was administrative...we were broken up into our details. I was in detail BRAVO. Had only 2 others from Platoon 4. Well, I got to know a few people in front and behind me. We engaged in small conversations and soon enough, we found out that we had alot of things in common and were talking like buddy'o pals.

My buddy is from platoon 3. He's a nice person and we were pretty co-operative about things so we had no problems getting our stuff done fast. We could remind each other what to pack and whenever I needed to take 5 for a smoke, he would understand.

Day 2 came and we started our mission. First mission was pretty interesting. We had to bomb a bridge to prevent enemy retreatment. There were 6 stations altogether. And the distance between every station is about 1km?. However, the sergeants like to "Tekan" us by asking to run to the next station or leapord crawl or fireman lift someone to the next station. I remember carrying one of the guys for about 200m plus to the next station. Really shack-a-doodles man. ( REALLY TIRED )

Interesting side missions like building a bridge to cross a lake. There were a few kinds of people in my detail. Some were co-operative, some werent so co-operative. Like every detail, theres bound to have people who are like that. Everyone got a chance to be IC and 2IC...However, i felt that sometimes, people like to do things the complicated way when it can be done like with a snap on a finger. My asscessor is a pretty nice person. He had an interview with me at the end of the day and asked about my plans after BMT. I told him this, like it or not, i have to go through 2 years of army. So why not just make the best out of it? And he keeps nodding and writing down stuff which i have no idea what. The day ended and we had outfield cooking with our own platoons. After that was pretty much OTOT and we "LEPAK" 1 corner to do our stuff.

Day 3 started, this time round we woke up earlier. Packed our bashas and went off for our road march. After doing 12km with FBO. 2km with SBO is like chicken feet. Our mission for the day is to rescue a hostage in a 4x4 m room with a locked window and surrounded by an electric fence. Its actually kinda funny cuz once we reached that station, there are supposed to be allied forces to help us and they could only hold on for 20mins?. I mean whatever the case is...The soles of our boots are made of rubber and rubber is NOT a conductor of electricity. So why do we have to build some structure to climb into the cell instead of just walking over? Climb in, carry out the hostage if he isnt wearing boots or something.

We spent like 20mins doing a 5min job... But oh wells, we played by the rule that says anything that touches the electric fence will get destroyed. So yea...

In the end, we had to grade our peers and such. Overall i find situational test more relaxing, its just the terrain again. Loads of creepy crawlies around. I had a bloody earthworm or whatever inside my pants. I had no idea how the hell it crawled through my garters but it did anyway and i threw the thing out. But in the end of the day, we left campsite happy. Made loads of new friends not only from my detail but from others and thats what made everything worthwhile.

20th Oct 06 Elyna's 18th @ Haciender

2006-10-24T12:24:00.000+08:00

@ Tony Roma's Orchard Towers! 20 Oct.. Gangster??

2006-10-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

GAYMOS ( Me, Percival, Matthew & Alvin Yeo )

2006-10-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

Platoon 4 Outing

2006-10-24T11:42:00.000+08:00

22nd Oct we went to Carls jR to have some munchies...i got myself a 16dollar plus meal which kicked ass. Most of the section 3 peeps went except for Daniel, Alston, Clifton & Yang.. Dinner rocked! we walked abit around marina sq to aid our digestion. Quiksilver was having 50% off on selected items. Practically the whole store was 50%...only a small amt. I got myself a pants which i think looks sexy on myself =X. Damm gangster... rad....

After that we went to cafe Iguana beside Brewerks at Riverside pt where they serve the best Of the BEST blueberry Margaritas! Rad! i can never stop ordering another glass during happy hours! its so damm cheap man...50% OFF. Rad...i got a macho blueberry margarita, a jug of strawberry margarita and another macho blueberry margarita. Got pretty high that night.

Faizal and Ee Chuan came down later to join us. K la its pretty fun having to see ur platoon mates wearing casual wear and letting loose instead of them in green everyday. And theres loads of things to chat about...Wonder why...Prolly cuz we are in the same boat...getting treated like a dog everyday but we can only keep it to ourselves...well..hardly have time to voice out anything in camp. so yea...It was a big hit!

The army peeps with General Percival in front!

2006-10-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

<-- Xue Wei Me Ee Chuan --> outside our bunks

2006-10-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

My Bunkies

2006-10-21T18:46:00.000+08:00

Reflections on field camp

2006-10-21T17:37:00.000+08:00

Field camp ... One of the most memorable events of BMT. Now let me recall... Oh yes, it was Friday the 13th November. That early morning, we drew arms and armed with our gear and ready to go live in the wilderness for a week.

We had a good 8km road march before reaching to our first campsite. ( The rubber plantation )...The trees were tall, very little branches. Shacked out upon reaching, we had to set up our bashas, tentages and all the admin stuff. After which lecture came. Lecture in the jungle isnt exactly as comfortable as in the lecture hall in BMTC. Trying to keep my head up and paying attention, i forced myself to drink water. The insects inhabitating the area were mostly small harmless ones like grasshoppers and praying mantises. So it wasnt really that bad sitting down.

Our first night came, and we were finally given our powder bath...That feeling isnt then because we didnt stick that bad yet. The feeling was good when i powdered my balls with prickly heat! Sleeping the first day wasnt that hard. I slept soundly because I was worn out already.

Second day came and we had to brush our teeth in the dark because of light displine. However, I packed the things i needed properly the night before so i had no problem taking them out. Having NO LIGHT before FIRST LIGHT was really difficult even when i packed them properly. Applying the toothpaste to my toothbrush took twice as long. and trying to open my water bottle while trying to keep a good grip to the rest of my thing was even harder.

We had lectures again. Learnt tactical movements and we put them to practice. It was really fun because we actually learnt something tactical. We havent had any chance to practice those in BMTC. We fired blanks which was even more interesting but a chore in the end when we had to clean our rifles.

Then came our fresh rations on the third morning if memory serves me well. We had macoroni which never tasted so good before. Combat rations arent exactly very platable, except for the noodles which tasted better a notch.

Moving to the oil palm plantation, we did a tactical walk...whereby we had to cut through some thick vegetation which was pretty tough. The second campsite was pretty nice and sandy. But the thing that bugged me was the centipedes. Luckily it didnt affect me at all thanks to SAF powder! We got to bathe in the fourth day which really made my day. That was the best part of field camp. Everyone felt so fresh again! And we were allowed to sleep in the open instead of a ground sheet over us. And nothing could beat hard concrete flooring then.

The 5th day, we had our test on section movement course. It was very fun because we were allowed to put our practice into usage. And plus, i felt that we had no communication problems because my group discussed the night before. Everything went smoothly luckily for us, heh. We got to know more about our PC that day because there was nothing on that night. And he shared with us about his experience in life and in the army. I find that the warrent officers have so much more to share and stories to tell instead of the commissioned ones probably because they have been in the service for a long long time. Perhaps thats why they have seen people beyond all walks of life.

The 6th day we left oil palm plantation for reclaimed land. Where we dug our graves. A shellscrape is hard enough. Thank goodness we didnt have to dig the fire trench. Fortunatelly for me I finished my shellscrape just before last light before helping the rest who were still digging. It was really streneous work. Luckily we were given fresh rations for lunch and breakfast. That night, we were made to sleep in our shellscrape. Which i couldent bring myself to because of the centipedes. I encounted 4 of them while digging. So i went over to chat with a group of friends after till we fell asleep in the end. I lied back and stared at the canopy and thought to myself, tomorrow is the last day! That was what kept my spirits up. The jungle is actually very beautiful in the wee hours of the morning and post dawn. The light emitting from above the canopy is distinct and i could just lie down there and relax. Of course without the centipedes and wild boars etc.

Our 7th day came, we did a tactical walk to the Battle Innoculation Course area. BIC wasnt as hard as it seemed. I guess the sergeants made it sound hard so we could be mentally prepared. Tightening up my webbing and helmet, I "Chionged" all the way not stopping! After which we sat in the 5 ton ready to head back!

Field camp on the whole made me a different person. That night, i thought to myself if I could survive field camp where getting dirty wasnt an option and eating combat rations which tasted like rubber. I can do more! Of course I learnt to cherish the things we use daily without noticing like bathing under running water and clean plates, forks and spoons and fresh foods. A BED!
It also made everyone more co-operative and bonded everyone closer. Sure there were a few tiffs here and there but it all turned out good in the end.

I asked mah gal

2006-10-21T17:23:00.000+08:00

I asked my girl
To take a walk
To take a walk
Down Orchard Road
Bypass Mandarin
To Centrepoint
We had our lunch
At Mac Donalds

We had fillet
And an apple pie
We shared a cup
Of lemonlime
Holding her hands
Look into her eyes
I asked my girl
To be my valentine

There was one night
There was no light
There was no light
So we used torchlight
Holding her hands
Look into her eyes
I asked my girl
To be my future wife

When i book in
I felt so sick
I felt so sick
I cannot eat
Pick up the phone
I called her home
But her mama said
That she wasnt home

I want to cry
I want to die
After some time
I changed my mind
I told myself
Oh what the fuck
When i book out
I'll try my luck

There is this girl
Who wears no bra
Her tits so big
Can see from far
I asked her out
She said okay lah
So off we went
To the Shangri La

Down came her skirt
Down came my pants
I saw her hole
And i start to screw
She shout WOO HAH
I shout WA PIANG EH
After sometime
Tu-roong Sen-ja ta

Fieldcamp!

2006-10-21T03:08:00.000+08:00

Confinement for 2 weeks again...cuz of fieldcamp. However this time...armed with our gear, we left BMTC early at 7am. The night before was hell...cuz everyone was rushing...to pack their stuffs...luckily for me, i had mine packed beforehand. The day itself we were made to empty our fullpacks for a final inspection. After which we continued our 8km road march. 6km to the old SISPEC and back. And another 2km to campsite 1 which was e rubber plantation.

We were shacked out when we arrived, but were made to build our bashas and tentage for the commanders. They have it good man. >.<....mmmZ so yea. Fieldcamp begins...7days and 6nights in the jungle. 1st day was lecture and drills...we were made to put on camo during the day. And before last light...or after...made to powder bath...luckily we could remove our camo...mmmZ

so it was practically like these...we moved on to the oil palm plantation on e third day...same shit again except this time...instead of grasshoppers and praying mantis, there were centipedes and funny looking worms . Urgh...but still i slept like a pig...

3rd day...we slept cowboy style at a malay abondoned village. Our first bath...WITH WATER! but only given a pail. So yea...had to make do. 4day we had this thing called CMC or SMC....controlled movement course or section movement course...whereby all of us had to give out commands while engaging with the enemy. Really fun! Its like CS real life a little.

We dug our trench or shellscrapes on the 4th day at the reclaimed land...which really shacked me out totally. It was the most tiring day of my entire field camp. Cuz we were using a stupid ET stick to dig. Hopefully we had fresh rations that day. I couldent even sleep that night...was up chatting with friends cuz of fear in getting bitten by centipedes. >.<....i came across 5 while digging my shellscrape. However on the 6th day was our BIC...after which we called it a day.

BIC ( Battle Innoculation Course ) is not as tiring as i expected or what people make it sound like...its like an obstacle whereby they have a machine gun shooting life rounds toward ur direction to simulate battle conditions. I had loads of fun man... Field camp made me appreciate the things we use everday without realising how desperate we would feel without them. I was desperate for a shower man... haha...anyways..its over. I SURVIVED!

Fieldcamp is the time where i see the true colours of everyone. Some of them are real assholes cuz they dont wanna help the others. Its like Me, I, Myself. Urgh...cant stand these kinda people man..but no choice..my buddy is somewhat a klutz when we are doing stuff...he just stands there and watches. Which made me pissed off.

Sighs...its 3.20am already and i am still awake...>.< i need to catch up on some sleep. So yea...

2006-09-23T19:23:00.000+08:00

My bunkies-

Infantry song

2006-09-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

Chorus
A-Ah-Oh-Ah INFANTRY AH
We are the men from Bronco Company YAH!

Verse 1
Got no time for chocolate bar YAH!
But got time for Chin up bar YAH!

Chorus

Verse 2
Got no time to eat orange YAH!
But got time to go for range YAH!

Chorus

Verse 3
Got no time to watch TV YAH!
But got time to do PT YAH!

Chorus

Verse 4
Got no time to masturbate YAH!
But got time to stand by bed YAH!

Chorus

Purple Light

2006-09-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

Verse 1
Purple Light
In the valley
That is where
I wanna be
Infantry
Close companions

Chorus
With my rifle and my buddy and me

Verse 2
Booking out
See my girlfriend
Saw her with
Another man
KILL THE MAN
RAPE MY GIRLFRIEND

Chorus

Verse 3
ORD
Back to study
Get degree
So happy
Looking back
Still remember

Chorus

Verse 4
Purple Light
At the warfront
That is where
My buddy died
IF I DIE
WOULD U BURY ME

Chorus

Training to be Soldiers

2006-09-23T18:55:00.000+08:00

Verse 1
Training to be soldiers
Fight for our land
Once in our lives
And 2 years of our time

Chorus
Have you ever wondered?
why must we serve
cuz we love our land
and we want it to be free to be free YAH!

Verse 2
Stand up
And be on your guard
Comeon everybody
Do your part
Comeon everybody
Soul and heart

Chorus
Do it for our nation
Do it for our Singapore YAH!

Verse 3
Looking all around us
People everywhere
Children having fun
While we are holding guns

Chorus
Have you ever wondered
Why must this be
Cuz we love our land
And we want it to be free to be free YAH!

Army Life

2006-09-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

Mmm army...lets see i enlisted 8th sept...and this is my first bookout! i am so happy! but army is fun too...I got into Bronco Company ( Bronco Coy ) Platoon 4....which is the highest level. 5th storey..

mmmZ.. My bunkies are really fun people...i am sleeping on bed 2...which is near the window...so i can spot sergeants fast...but they can spot me fast too. So gotta use skill when using the phone during lights out. LoL....

Bronco is a warrent coy. They think thats welfare cuz its being run by warrent officers...but not mine...i think my Platoon Commander Warrent EE is a monster during training. LoL...but hes a nice guy. Just wont wanna show his soft side. =X....

So far BMT is fun...my platoon i think is the best amongst the rest cuz though we sleep in the highest level, we fall in the earliest. We sing funny songs, and we crack loads of jokes. Of course there are a few fuck ups in the platoon or coy. Who always dont wanna participate. But screw em la. I hardly get admin time the first few days cuz we were being made to do alot of shit like packing our bags and stuff. Everything is so orderly there..even the way we arrange our pillows and the way we fold our blankets are being kept close watch.

We march wherever we go and we have to be quick and fast with everything. Even lunch. Theres always a deadline for something. When a sergeant shouts an order like " Gather " ....we have to echo " Gather "....thats how tekong is like. Even before drinking water...everyone has to do water parade. And we gotta recite the SAF 7 Core Values and stuff.

Of course the first night i couldent sleep. I kept thinking of why am i stuck in this place. But it got better and i started to sleep like a pig the following nights. I also dreamt of the people whom i miss... I dreamt of Joann again...this time we met...and we werent sure of what to do...and i kept smiling and she kept smiling and i just reached out my arms and hugged her..that kinda happy hugs u give someone. And i think i woke up smiling. My friends thought i was crazy..lolZ

Lets see...mmmZ But yea...of cuz i dread going back...losing all freedom...not being able to do the things i want and stuff like that. But its changed me alot i guess as a person. Perspective of things change. I treasure what i have more and i long for what i dont have even more. I learnt to take care of something called a Rifle. Treating it like my wife. I bet my future wife would say i m crazy or something.

Learnt loads of army songs....posted abv.
interesting

E Last Day of Freedom..

2006-09-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

Sighs...finally the last day of freedom has ended. Its now 12.49am and i am so damm sad to leave home. I didnt do much today... It was more on like running around doing errands...Grey was making noise cuz it didnt have food... He woke me up...Chirping so loudly >.<... It was 11.30...so i fed it a cashew nut...and went to bathe and i left immediately to Serangoon to get food for it...

Went to Bryan's house where they passed me stuff and i made a shopping list so that Bryan could help me get food. Then i went home...slacked abit.

Came out to Novena...passed Michelle e stuff...went to W.Network...got the food..i got
10 packet instant mee...4 cup noodles...1 box pringles...1box of cheese biscuits...2 box of coOkies...1 big bag mamee noodles to last me for weeks hopefully...

Damm sad...i'll miss my internet...my movies...southparks...family guy...cable... Urgh..>.< ESP My friends...

Sigh...but i mean okay la..i'll get to make new friends too. so i guess it evens out. Hope i enter a welfare company or smth >.<

I hope that i have time to write a diary there...if not a journal. Hopefully things will be okay...2weeks from now. I'll update again. >.<

My Last day at W.Network

2006-09-06T05:51:00.000+08:00

Lets see... I am trying my best to squeeze time for everyone here...mmm well it was work today...but went to The Line again!!! 4 of us..Bryan Barry James & I... N James was so nice to have given me a treat...Really touched. Mmm...went to tanglin after that...bought again some necessities for army...

We went to Pacific Plaza...& GUESS WHAT! i was so so happy to see my Nike Regime! and i saw new team eds...so i got this brown team ed...and i was still a little unsatisfied cuz i been thru alot to search for the regime...even went to johor to look for it. And its the last pair with my size! so i got both la! lolZ didnt regret but yea!

After that was work...again...urgh...nothing interesting to report about...except of some customers who were really impatient. Barry came to pick Bryan up....Belinda sent Aunty home...& Marcus Ou came to meet me and Yew Cheng...so we went to watch The Devil Wears Prada at 1.45am @ Cine...mmmZ...its sorta like a comedy yet it kept me thinking to myself if I would give up almost everything for my job...mmmZ...

Went to mr bean for a coffee...and i reached home ard 5.30am..its about 6 now...>.< and i am still up. Sighs...really need to enjoy every moment before i enter the army.

I test drove a toyota vios today...pretty smooth engine. v6...mmm it hums like one.

And oh wells... Here i am blogging...its like yea only a few of u guys read this crap regularly...Its really boring to read what someone has done in a day...Shruggs... It is only appealing to me... cuz i cultivated e habit of keeping a journal when i was young...And its nice to sometimes see what I have written down years ago.

I m planning to write a diary in BMT....hopefully i get time to write one. Up till today...i consider myself blessed to have tried so many things in this world. Unfortunately hooked on certain things like cigrettes... But its all cutting down recently...by ALOT. Mmm...

Anyways one thing i learned about the movie just now is never to whine and sob when someone critises u....( Not that i do it...but usually when someone does that to me...i'd prolly just wont give a crap about e person anymore ) .... but to find new ways to tackle it. Only time i do that is when solving maths problems or whatever in school. Maybe try applying it to everything. Should work...mmmZ...Will work i guess.

I learnt another thing today...thats how to enjoy wasabi to its fullest. James thought me...take a fish...give it a huge spread of wasabi on top of it. Lay it in your tongue but make sure! it does not touches the top of ur mouth...n just let ur taste buds feel it. Cuz i love wasabi alot...but whenever i eat sashimi..i usually put a tiny bit cuz i just chuck the whole piece of fish into my mouth and start chewing like crazy. >.<...Well i found out many people dont know this. So yea. It tastes pretty good too!

mmmZ...sighs... have nothing else to say. Sleep.

Countdown to Sept 8

2006-08-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

Sighs...12 more days... Before I enter the Army.

Really wondering alot now. Hoping that everything would be fine there...None of the sergants mark me...have loads of friends...friends not being pussies and stuff like that?... I am sure they wont be lah. Anyways yea... I have quit my job at Firmenich.

I wanna meet everyone before i enter the army. I've met Admond n Edric today ( Long time since i saw both of them )..Poor Edric was admitted to the hospital cuz of his leg. And Sharon his gf was so nice as to keep him company everyday! Nice girls are hard to find nowadays. Every one is for themselves now.

I was thinking about a story that Kenneth told me...

Theres a guy working at a supermarket...and he would bring his 2 dogs there. A girl walked into the supermarket...started to play with the dogs. And she came back the next day and the day after and so on. Until she got aqquainted with the guy. So she got attracted to him and asked his collegue abt him. The collegue replied, u will never get the guy cuz all he loves in the world are his dogs.

Moral of e story... It is hard to find love nowadays without complexity. Whereas when u love a pet, u just have to give it love and warmth and it would be happy. No questions asked, nothing buried inside. Simple and straightforward.

Which i find really true... Its seems like its no longer "I love u" but "I love u because..."

See the diff?...mmmZ Havent met them in a long while...today is like nostalgia trip for me.

After meeting Edric...i went to meet Bryan for dinner where again we bumped into Glecy..our old classmate from cathecisim. And its kinda nice to talk to the people whom u dont usually mix with everyday. Lets u know how they are doing and stuff like that...

Went to Kino...Bumped into Judy from Orchid park. >.<....n yup...really loads of old friends coming up today.

When i reached home...i recieved a text from SeowFang...whom i have never met in like 3 over years...and she was asking me for my MSN and stuff like that...so yea...its kinda weird. MmmZ...

Did abit of reading today...about Blackholes and Purgatory...well actually reviewing them. Read them before...but was asking friends about it and opinions and stuff...

And Pluto is no longer a planet?....its being "Demoted" to a dwarf planet... Looks like the world has to change their textbooks and planetorium's hafta revamp the solar system and stuff like that lol.

What a world we live in... we really cant stop learning.

Am i digging chinese songs now?

2006-08-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

What da hell man...i think 2 mths of 933fm has gotten me to like chinese songs...i am actually asking people for the song titles, artists and stuff like that...and on Yew Cheng's Bday...i freaking sang chinese songs at Plasma lar....>.<

Hahahaha...i have no idea what the lyrics mean...but i think theres like alot of the "Urmf" cuz the singers sing with so much "Feelings" like as if they wanna cry...

mmmZ....

Marcus Ou << & >> Me (Outside W.Network)

2006-08-19T05:56:00.000+08:00

This is what we both look like after we shaved Outside WineNetwork! And we were working with that kinda hairstyle! LOL

GOT GUTS!

2006-08-19T05:38:00.000+08:00

So after work at Firmenich today.. I went to meet Marcus Ou @ Orchard MRT station...we wanted to shave our hair before work today...went over to Wisma's Watsons to look for some spray on hair dye..but they only had 2 colours...black & dark brown...urgh...

Went over to Taka's Watsons and same thing...So we walked over to Heerens...this Jap shop at lvl 3...and got ourselves an ash coloured moosue dye. After that..we got our dinner at cine and took a cab to W.network...heh...

So Marcus started off first...we took this rattan chair and placed it on the roadside and he started shaving his ENTIRE side off...i was kinda shocked man...>.<

I had in mind a mohawk... sorta like aerodynamic mohawk. But i call it myself "Mohog" cuz i think its kinda shabbily done. Everyone told me they liked my hair...assholic customers didnt try me and nice customers complemented. 2 nice groups of customers even tipped me. Heh...and i heard an ah ma call me nice!

Mmm...We shaved at the roadside and took it to the toilet cuz we needed a mirror...i dont know wth got into me?...but this is called GOT GUTS!....however i think my hair isnt really even now on both sides...and there are some tiny spots which the hair is a tiny winy bit longer den the rest. LoL..Everyone looked at me and Marcus's hair. However some thought it was pretty funny...screw them cuz they are the usual typical singaporean who either keep their usual hair and some who rebond who wanna look good from the back only....or the usual side partings for guys and cliche center partings for bengs.

Its kinda cooling now that i am like 3/4 botak. However i think that i dont suit that kinda hairstyle?...i rather the studious or the normal usual styling of hair. LoL but anyways its for fun and what the hell..i am gonna shave it off before i enter the NS..

Its 5.46AM now and i am still not sleeping >.< Blog another day then.

Buyakasha!

2006-08-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

Work was pretty harsh today...always was...always ready but never really...for work...

What the hell am i blabbering on about...

I feel that sometimes i am treated like a dog at work..."Aaron! go get IPA", "Aaron! get for me containers", "Aaron! Lick my butthole"....okay leave that out...but URGH....get the point?
But of cuz the temp staff shuts his trap and gets it done with a smile. Thats me ^^

It was crazy today...there were so many orders...and cuz i took leave last Friday, that Quek didnt pack anything at all man...so little..and i was given that kinda shit on a Monday. >.<....

Anyways...Tng's on leave for the whole week...heard hes gone deep sea fishing. Should be fun.

Lets see..Juli's a nocturnal bird! Hope i can get to see her when she comes to Singapore for a day.

Got a msg from Joann! Shes just moved in and came online today...but i didnt catch her...i got a feeling its gonna be hard for us to chat... But nevertheless...i hope we wouldent drift apart cuz of that. She said to me once...i'd forget her...mmm i cant...i wont...

Oh so we were going for lunch today...and this new manager came up to us...asking us if we were going for lunch. and asked if he could join us...Didnt catch his name though..but we talked...Hes attached to Firsin...thats Firmenich ( Singapore ) for 2 mths and then going to Firmenich ( Shang Hai) Lucky bastard!...hes from the States ( New York ) but he moved to Geneva at 5 years old...Background..Ba. Management ( Harvard University ) Butoh!...

23 years old only and hes getting to see the world. I am so envious >.<

So apparently hes a management manager...he gets the whole picture of what every department is doing and tries to improve workflow and stuff like that?... Then he will get posted permenantly at one of the branches in the world.

Moving on.. I had to do OT today cuz there was simply too much stuff...and Quek that asshole escaped! urgh.

OT is always boring...cuz u come home at night...like 9plus...and u cant do much except sleep in a few hours and get ready for work the next day...

So Dig this...i was eating Mee Hoon Kway for dinner alright...and this bloody Xiao Qiang ( Cockroach ) --> Thats what the chinese call it..dont know why....anyway it was on the side of my bowl...the inside side...luckily it wasnt on the soup or anything or i would vormit. So i was looking at it and it stared back at me and i lifted the bloody bowl and slammed it on the table.

Bloody thing would budge...so i flicked it and it flew...now i was kinda pissed off cuz i was scared if it took a shit onto my noodles or anything...But i had no choice..cuz i was still kinda hungry and dinner time was ending...so i shut my eyes and chewed on miserably... =..(

Went back to the lab after dinner...i opened this bunch of al can containers and guess what i saw...another FUCKING XIAO QIANG...i thought it was dead cuz it looked crushed...so i put on a pair of gloves started to take it out...fucker ran deeper into the bunch of bottles. So i told Alex...i cant sleep if i know i dont kill it. so he suggested IPA...isopropyl alcohol...i wanted to soak it in IPA and burn it...but the IPA killed it almost instantly. Its better den Bygon or Sheltox.

Anyways i took a cab home...Freaking costs me SGD$25.30. Urgh...TUAS is so damm far from civilization man...its nothing but factories and shit like that....And it wasnt even midnight charge!

Got home...was talking to Georgina just now...and HEY....shes like the 3rd or 4th person say that Joann looks like Jolin Cai!... Cuz she said pretty lady u have there..i was like Pretty right?! and she said she looks like Jolin Cai...I mean... I didnt mention anything abt anything. Joann dig this! U're like celebrity hot k?!

National Day

2006-08-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

Juli and Me at City Square JB. 6th Aug 06

2006-08-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

The Annual...

2006-08-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

MmmZ....finally its mid year season....well sort of.. Thats when Juli comes down from the UK...to visit her relatives...

Just went to JB just now...met her at City Square...pretty fun! she still seems the same... Her mom was really nice to me...haha kept asking her to tell me to join them for dinner and all...well yea...basically we spent the whole day at city square. Walking around...shopping for books and stuff for her. OH YEA! i saw the NIKE REGIME at Crossover...but its like 399rm....bloody ripoff...its 170 sgd i think...mmm just divide by 2.3....but still...in sg its 130 only....but too bad they sold out here...they have size 11 and 10 left...which i think 10 fits nicely.

Well we were at the foodcourt...then after that...we left her parents and relatives...mmmZ...walked around...basically we combed the entire mall 3 times....went to e arcade...which we spent a whole lot of money. haha...pretty fun since i havent been to the arcade for a long time. and she likes racing games?...just that she dosent know how to use manual...and its crazy cuz her car was travelling at gear 1 all the way?....>.<....

MmmZ....went for bubble tea...and i told her she could have found a shop that sells bubble tea in msia...and bought her her favourite grape bubble tea.

Wanted to watch CLICK by Adam Sandler...its out earlier there..but the movie started half an hour and the next slot was pretty late.. anyways...we went into a bookshop...popular...got her posters of babies for her sister...a book on a guide to learning mandarin. and a story book which i had no idea wth was.

Mmm...well..had a fun time in the end! We walked from 2 all the way till 9 i think....its bloody 7 hours...of cuz a few breaks in between but wth?! haha ^^

Joann & I @ The Line ( Shangri - La ) 1st Aug 06

2006-08-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

Shes Leaving..

2006-08-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

Who?...Joann...sobZ...shes one i consider as a really gd friend?...but shes leaving to do her Ph.D in neurobiology...super smart huh?

We went to The Line on 1st Aug 06....i think thats gonna be our last 'date' together. And throughout these 'dates'...i found her getting more and more amusing... Its really strange cuz usually the girls would show their true colours by the 2nd or 3rd date...but no...its like her true colours are actually making me want to go out with her again!

I asked her this qn. And i was so amazed... Goes like this

A : Do you enjoy your job?
J : Yea very much.
A : Why? its like more than 50% of Singaporeans hate their jobs.
J : Its because my dream is to help mankind. Though mankind is killing itself...the least i can do is help them. Even if i dont find the cure for aids or anything, I would still feel satisfied about it because i would be helping the next person find it.
A : You are like Ms Universe man...

Thats really noble man...i mean everyone is in it for the money...mostly. Most of our passion dosent pay off...however her passion is to help mankind and i think the thing that pays her off most is mankind's benefit itself!

I am happy and sad that shes leaving...happy cuz shes gonna do something she likes and of cuz attain a higher qualification. Sad because i terribly miss her...even as i type this blog...the amout of words is like equilivent to the amout i miss her...mmm on a scale of 1-10?...which means its over the limit already. Haha...

Is this attraction? i often ask myself.... I mean I love having this relationship with her as a gd friend...She tells me I am the only guy friend that keeps a platonic relationship... But i feel good about it. I mean i had never ever had any designs on her before... But i wanna see her more after each time we meet.

Whats true love? I feel true love is when you forget about yourself and put yourself into another person's shoe and see the things he/she sees... Putting aside time to spend time with him/her even if schedule is packed etc. Making deep sacrifices for that person.

I am skeptical about wooing good friends...Cuz if something bad happens if we hit it off...things would never be the same again... Sigh. I dont wanna lose a good friend.

However, this has kept me wondering from time and again... Why is it that someone whos gonna get a Ph.D would want to hang out with a regular poly student... Its my honour to be her friend man... but sometimes i feel that i am not good enough for her. However, she has never ever put me in a situation where i felt small and unimportant. Shes pretty good at listening attentively and giving really gd comments.

Shes always telling me 'Angels by your side' before i go to bed... I would smile and think...arent u the angel?

Near Pebble Beach...Tioman...water is so clear!

2006-07-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

Me, Jemery Marcus & Trevor

2006-07-16T22:13:00.001+08:00

At the back of e boat...Tioman..

2006-07-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

Aunty Aisha, Fern Me and Jeremy

2006-07-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

Updates

2006-07-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

Met Joann last wed for dinner...we wanted to go to Marches but realised the Heerens one closed down for renovation....So we were lazy to travel all e way to Suntec...so we went t0 Sakura...some jap buffet at Orchard shopping centre... Well basically for 26 bucks u get oysters that are pretty big...but they arent really fresh..and everything there was so so...not fabulous though...

Joann rebonded her hair..which was suited her very much. And i liked it. Smelled good too..haha..mmmZ so we went for wine after that at wine network where i met that new cashier who was so rude to me...asking for a tip.. Even if i were to tip her...that is not the way... but argh...i got so embarrassed cuz Joann was ard.

Anyways...The Line! at Shangri La hotel...Joann tells me its 92 buckaroos...but its gonna be good. cuz everyone says it is. lol...hope it beats pariss a zillion...den i would wanna go there everytime already.

so blablabla...Sat was the 2nd day of the week i've been to town...i think...met Bryan and Barry to catch a movie called Murderball...peeps that dont like documentary pls do not even think about watching it...we watched it in the Picture House at The Cathay... Mmm i fell asleep twice i think...cuz the seats were so comfortable...btw they were from Italy and strictly no food and drinks inside cuz of e seats.. Went for dinner at e food republic food court at wisma...den coffee and mac cafe....and then billards at mc masters...okay so they were going to the Butter Factory after for someone's bday...and i was having second thoughts on going cuz i dont know the girl at all...maybe we met..but not close...den i suddenly rememberd Joann was going...that made me really wanting to go?...but argh...by then i was alone..and Georgina msged me and asked me to join her and Kang Xiang at taka...so i went to meet em....Georgina was pretty on about going to the Butter Factory but Kx was more mellow that night...argh...BAWWRRING...so we went for coffee and e coffee bean...den walked more..den went to Alley bar to chill out...saw Kel there singing..and Mun Hong and William later on celebrating their friend's bday...so after that we chatted bout stuff like Georgina's friend or old friend, tried to hit on her and asked for a shagged despite knowing Kx is her bf...what an asshole i know.

Best part about it is that the guy has a gf who is so nice to him...pity that shes gotta meet such a douche bag. MmmmmZ....plans for e future...get my decks...make space for them in my room...miss Joann when she goes for her Ph.D program in August...shes going for 5 years...( I am Super Super Sad )....oh ya...going to visit Fong tml...at his new workplace..and visit The Line this coming payday season with Joann!

Been to Tioman recently also...in June...about 1 mth since i came back..and it is FANTASTIC...met 2 new people there also...DeHui and ShaoFern....bro and sis....gonna upload some of the pics...took like so many!

2006-05-16T17:28:00.000+08:00

This was at Arab Street...I was having Grape Shisha with Viceroy Menthol Lights...Or was it marlboro lights... haha... Anyway try it with particularly Viceroy Menthol Lights...Its really cooling.

Abi Trying Apple Mint Shisha with Viceroy Menthol!

2006-05-16T17:26:00.000+08:00

Reflecktions2

2006-05-16T17:02:00.001+08:00

I guess maybe theres a turning point at everyone's life. Some lucky ones hit the straight road...some, curvy and wavy...for me...i feel that i have screwed up most of it.

The biggest issue for me now is not being accepted into the uni... Theres always a chance to appeal, but i am unsure of where it would land me still. Personally i feel that i didnt take the right approach from start. If i had join a CCA, and strived at it...Probably...i might get in.

I chose work....But still...i somehow cannot bring myself to regret what i have done...Because its also a fruitful experience. I met loads of successful people...I am able to get what i want quickly and stuff like these...

I been to the talk from NTU....its really fascinating to see what the students do there....WOW could u believe a underwater robot swimming?...Sounds nerdy...but ever wondered...the aircon...or whatsoever appliance used is made by engineers?...Nerds dont use the TV do they?

Another thing maybe i learnt is not to be too callous (Not sure if its the word)...but anyways...i just feel really lousy about things going on right now...NTU....that girl...everything lah .... it sucks.

Maybe i am not cut out for a girl... I just cant stand that kinda feeling when being told sorry we dont work out...or something like that. Its like....gosh...any guy or girl could feel that. And the thing is...instead of taking it casually...i bottle it up. And feel F**ked up all over.

Letting go is better...but sometimes...i feel for the NTU case...i cannot stop trying. I dont want some stupid CCA or something ruining my chances to enter.

Passion drives oneself to commit...

Edited Pic of the previous. MUTE IT ! By Mw

2006-04-14T04:08:00.000+08:00

Abiram, Me, KangXiang @ Casurina.

2006-04-14T04:07:00.000+08:00

Pesky People

2006-04-14T03:46:00.000+08:00

Was working just now. Everything was going fine till this group of girls turned it around. Really got me pissed... Okay...so heres the story. . .

Their bill was the first on the stack...so i went to bill this table G11...(Those Fuckers were sitting there) and she told me it wasnt her bill...so i said okay...i will come back later. I put the bill at the bottom of the stack. Till i billed everyone...i went back in to check with the cashier, Barry if he had written correctly...So he was like wtf...so i called YewCheng who confirmed its their table...

Okay...so i went to bill them again..this time i asked them are u sure this isnt ur card...Fucking bitch told me it is my card...Then i was like WTF why u said it wasnt ur card in the first place. Then she said...cuz just now when i presented to her the bill...( Asking for e credit card part ) she said i gave her a bill with a credit card on it. Now why will i give her the bill of another table. ( No. 1 ).....And why the FUCK will I give her a bill that has a credit card on it. ( No. 2 ).....

So she kept insisting i gave her the wrong bill..so i said fine i dont wanna argue with u....Another bitch said...."she was just telling u about just now...whats ur problem"... I said i didnt have a problem...and she was raising her voice. Okay i didnt know what got into me...but i didnt say anything... Its not my fucking nature to keep quiet when someone wrongs me....

Anyways...Fuck them lah...stupid bitch even wears specs....n she wants to play with me....

Argh

The one kind of attitude i hate about some people.

2006-02-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

I think the greatest people I hate are backstabbers. Just this Monday...20th Feb 2006. I overheard a most shocking convo between my bro and the manager. Here goes...

I was standing beside the counter when I overheard my brother telling Fong ( Manager ) about 2 staff of my company ( ZhiPeng and Marcus ). Apparently Zhipeng was late so he called Marcus Tang to punch his card for him. My brother wasnt too happy so he told the manager what happened...

Of cuz upon hearing this...i was pissed off. In fact i still am, and we quarrelled. I told him " Why the fuck did u have to tell the manager this " then he retorted and flared back and said " I was working damm hard and all sorts of bullshit and Zhipeng just comes in late and smiles like nothing is wrong."

So I told him..part of being a man is to give people face. The way u backstab others like this dosent make u look good at all. So he was like...did Marcus give me face when he fucked me in front of everyone...if Marcus is so good, why isnt he the manager...If Marcus is so good, his family wouldent have left him.

Being really pissed off at that moment...the words couldent come out. I was like...FUCK U! den i walked out...

Now that i am all cooled down...I can say confidently that Marcus isnt the manager because he cannot be down at workplace everyday...And about family wise...His wife was an asshole. They didnt leave him. He still gets custody of his daughter U FUCK!

Secondly..I dont have to tell anyone about what happened...NOW EVERYONE IS TALKING ABOUT YOU...i seriously regretted getting him that job in wine network. He comes in and acts YAYA....now that everyone isnt really on speaking terms with you...U still wanna add fuel to the fire... STUPID MOVE PLS.

U wanna threaten me by telling dad I smoke...go ahead. Besides...the reason why i dont tell him is that i dont want him to get angry. PLUS, if u think i potray the image of a beng...PLS...at least this beng here knows how to deal with people and can tell what is right from wrong.

U want to bring people's family into this... What kind of childish act is this. Plus telling dad that i smk dosent have any bearing on what happened. U want to play this game...I will play along.

Thinking for the company...u said we shd think for the company. OIE FUCKER, Listen here and listen good.. Zhipeng was only 1 hour late. thats 7 bucks the company gives him. COUNT THE NUMBER OF TIMES U FUCKING GAVE CUSTOMERS U DONT KNOW A DISCOUNT!!! HOW MUCH DOES THIS COST!

Dont try to fuck around....i know u have been giving people u dont know discounts...IS THAT THE WAY U GET UR REGULARS?!

Dont fuck with me pls... I got alot of things that i can tell the world...Just because u happened to be my brother...i just shut my mouth. U said...u cant believe U have a brother like me?

Please...Go and think about yourself. U want to backstab the people in the same boat as you... Even your friends tell me...they wouldent do such a disgusting act...

Even your brother and cousins think this way of you...what do u count yourself as?

2006-02-13T02:14:00.000+08:00

Hi Aaron,

Glad to know that you have decided to further your studies in Mechanical Engineering in a university. With your good results, you have no problem in getting into the NUS and NTU. I would rate you at least in the scale of 8 and above top 20% of MTE Year 3 students. Don't worry, just get the form and apply. You should trust your own abilities.

regardsTan Cheng Nee

My results throughout the first 5 semesters are 12As, 17Bs, 3Cs and a D

out of the 12As i got 1Distinction, 5A+, 6As
out of the 17Bs i got 6B+ and 11Bs
3C+
1D+

which i find well...its an avg AB student...but thats what i expected...afterall...i wanted best of both worlds...thats study and play...+ i have to juggle it with work..

Thats the letter from my course manager...>.<

Reflecktions

2006-01-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

MmmZ...was thinking i should blog suddenly

anyways...gonna elaborate about the past 3 years...or 3.5years..

Was thinking back during the sec school days when studies didnt really matter...i did loads of partying...wasted precious time.. Till i kinda screwed up my olevels....

I remember that during those days...i didnt really bother looking at the textbook...i just studied blankly and sometimes didnt learn a thing...i could day dream during lessons... boycott myself from classes... However i didnt hate going to school because my friends were there... I only liked free period...i was happy when teachers were absent not knowing that it would affect me later on.

I wanted to be rich when i grow up...but i didnt know what i wanted to do... Till i screwed up my olevels...Result day came and i stared blankly at the paper...i thought i'd do pretty well because my prelims werent that bad. Still, the results proved one thing...that i got too complacent and took things for granted. Thats when my life changed again. ( Because sec 1 and 2, i put effort wanting to start afresh from PSLE which i also kinda screwed it up )

I have this problem of being complacent... i get over confident whenever i get too good a grade...
and would just not bother about future test thinking that i will do well again.

So i didnt have many choices for a course in the poly.

Anyways, at that point of time...i had totally given up. I didnt really party much...just stayed at home...did nothing...soon after i thought to myself that i wanted to prove my family & friends wrong that i wasnt that dumb.

So i just chose mechatronics engineering cuz i always wanted to enter an engineering course...mechatronics then seems such a cool name to me...and it still is now. Thats why i didnt regret choosing it..but thats not the whole point...

Anyways...i studied hard during my poly days...i realised that the class i entered wasnt too good...that was a huge headstart i had...having A.maths background...which soon of them dont...i found most of the first year topic somewhat similar to what i had studied...But i needed practice cuz i kinda suck at A.maths in sec sch... But it all came back to me once i started practicing my maths...i took other modules like mechanics and its all maths and physics related which i really dig.

I did pretty well for my tests and exams...and my classmates came to me for help...thats the first time i had that kinda experience...It made me worked even harder...

So I made pretty good friends in poly...however we didnt hang out as much... But there were a bunch of nerds in my class..they paid attention...but their results kinda sucked..except for one of them...so i treated him as competition. Its like between first and second.

So as each year passed, i lost many of my classmates and good friends...they couldent pass certain modules therefore our schedules changed...I found out that once u are behind others...its very hard to catch up. That made me even more keen to work harder.

However, besides studying and getting good grades, i realised that i wanted a balanced life...I started treating myself by clubbing, going out, having fun. I worked too...to get the experience of working life as well as get some extra cash. Life now started to have meaning and i am fufilling it when it made sense to me.

I did well for my streaming and i chose MEMS as my final module...MEMS = Micro Electro Mechanical Systems....I chose the project 2 Axis Force Balance for Wind Tunnel which is under my current supervisor Mr Cheah Choo Lek.

I got kinda stuck at first..kinda screwing up panel presentations by panel presentations... He didnt want to help us... I felt that he gave us a target and gave us instructions to meet that target...But we didnt know what he wanted cuz whenever we tried he would disagree...However we made it finally and our project did pretty well for the Final VIVA...which made me so happy!

Being able to prove to a panel of judges that u have done ur project sucessfully is an amazing feeling because they shoot you with questions...and u have to answer them...

Thanks to that excessive reading he told me to do...it made me confident to answer them.

Right now...its the last semester... I dont want to screw this up. I want to get into a Uni...by all means because now i know what i want to do in the future...That is, to be able to open a club...and i wanna spin inside my own club!

I have a New Year's Resolution for 2006! and that is to buy a mixer and turntables and learn how to spin. That feeling of having a crowd dancing and cheering to your music, i feel could be the same as what from the final VIVA... Furthermore...I love music...and its a passion for me to spin.

About relationships wise...i had a few good memories as well as a few unpleasant ones... But now i am single till some girl comes and sweep me away from my feet. MmmZ...but yea...no intention to finding a girl because i am having so much fun, loaded and not tied down to another unnecessaray commitment. Thats if the girl isnt really ALWAYS independent...

Attica and Attica Too

2005-12-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

Went there on Xmas day itself. Was down with flu...coughed out blood before that. >.<
anyway i decided to leave Bryan and Jeremy behind cuz Bryan had plans after and Jeremy wanted to go home...feeling that the night was still young..i decided to head to Attica with Barry.

Was under the guest list so didnt have to pay. Thanks to Josh. Its really posh as well..just smaller den MOS..Attica Too had mirrors all over so it made it seem big..i like their TV system where they show the DJ spinning live. Really Cool...Headed up to Attica Too first...and DJ Daniel was spinning shortly after DJ Rebekah took over...with house music..but it got too pitchy and vocalistic so went down to Attica with r&B...

I love r&B though...but that night wasnt a night to dance cuz sick...kept coughing...Trevor also caught the flu. So he sent me home. Next party is on NYE...still havent come up with plans..

Shd have gone there on Xmas eve with Danny Rampling...was on the guest list as well but they decided to bail on the last min.

Ministry of Sound

2005-12-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

RAWKED totally man... The queue was crazy on their first Wed Retro Night... I had invites so yea...went with Kangxiang...but i turned up late...so yea his gf and friends went in first..den i think his gf had a bitch fit or smth. So they were arguing from the queue to the "reception" to smoove to the main arena to the sky lounge...even when there were 10 mins left of 1 4 1...i still couldent ask Kx to share drinks cuz she was still pissed..lol...

Finally after everything died down between them...thats when i started talking... With a jug of whiskey dry on my hand...and my phone on the other...i was messaging Elizabeth telling her whats happening then.

1 4 1 was till 11 i think... jugs going at 49 and house pours are at 12 or 14 if i can recall... Their Moet and Chandons are going for $130 and Vueue Cliquot at $150...mmmZ pretty reasonable i guess..but jug prices without 1 4 1 are a little steep. With Debbie Chia ( DJ ) spinning retro to pop and sometimes a little top 40's here and there, the dance floor was packed by midnight.

I was sitting at the Sky Lounge sipping my drinks away...And i got Kx a lamborgini with a dbl shot... so yea...Didnt realise he was driving so i stopped. Its his birthday, wonder where he got that idea to drive.. Anyway i love that place and would definately go back again.

DXO - EMBRACE YOU

2005-10-16T19:24:00.000+08:00

Went to DXO after work yesterday...E Entry was free cuz Josh knows one of e managers and stuff...drinks all also covered for...Wow...Before i could step in...the bouncer..or the marshal as they call, told me to take off my cap and look at a camera...WTF? but still very sleak. LoL...Think its for security purposes or smth...

Stepped in...it was bare...hardly anyone around...PLUS it was 2am...Zouk would definately be crowded at this time...too bad its closed.

Barry showed me around the place...First, theres the Nook, ( Cigars Section ), Nest ( Outdoor section ), Barnova where u sip your delicious cocktails and the Patio where u watch e traffic whiz by.

The interior gives you the feeling that you are so petit in only one part of the club enjoying one sort of culture while the WHOLE club of more than one section is partying to the same music but through different cultures... You cant help but want to experience them all...The private lounges, wine cellars....WOW its very sleak.

Its a damm cool place...The music was good as well with Jason.T , one of the resident DJs...Playing House music...

The only problem i dont get is why is it so bare when the interior is so good, Plus the music is good too...

Zouk is just as expensive agreed, but DXO is definately a place where the word FUN is never enough.

More than words.

2005-10-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

Oh man...yesterday night was disaster...more like stressed up.

Listen here...i dont treat people i like as friends but just an aquaintance. U come and if we get attached...we clique...but if we dont...den I go.

Thats just me....apologizing just make things worse...furthermore...it will piss me...cuz ur hesistant... so yea. Super Super dissed already...

But this morning i went to school and my supervisor made my day...i am ABOUT ready to fabricate stuff already! But still gotta get some stuff confirmed before i fabricate...>.<

This time...its with a sub company!!!

40 year old Virgin...catch that show cuz it rawks!!!! Watched with alvinder n abi....cant stop laughing...>.<

And since when the heck is MOS coming to SG?...if it comes...PERFECT!

Listen to your heart

2005-10-09T03:40:00.000+08:00

This is an oldie...frm e 80's..Orignally sang by Roxette...but i like the version by DHT better...

Listen To Your Heart

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Chorus

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mentionbut you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Fucked up system...money minded boss

2005-10-01T04:53:00.000+08:00

So i was supposed to work 4 days this week till i found out that belinda planned me only 3 days...so i was kinda uphappy but wtf can i do right?...

I went to work on Thurs and Doreen brought this topic about our days being shortened...

I realised that the new workers are working the same amt of days as the old timers...i mean wtf....Then theres this new motherfucker called Marcus Aw...super dimwit...

Firstly hes so cocky to us...thinks hes like some big shot..whereas he seems like a fly to me...
Second that fucker likes to play Bhudda...just sitting in front of the cashier day dreaming...urgh..

Hes been with us for over a week and he dosent even know how to open a wine bottle...damm sad...Best part..Hes working in a Wine Shop!!!

Thirdly...cuz of him..we get screwed by customers...Customers hafta wait so long for their bill to come back...over half an hour...1 customer even left...without even signing the reciept and getting his credit card..

Fourthly...fucker likes to act smart...today he charged a customer twice cuz he forgotten to tear away the written captain's order...

Fifth...If he cant get along with us..how does he expect to PR to customers...and the thing is that customers come to the shop cuz of us...they are our regulars...now u put a newcomer on the busiest day of the week and a cocky one too...and u expect our customers to be happy? Fuck no..

I found out that our boss shortened our days so he dosent hafta pay us CPF...cuz the rule is that if ur salary goes beyond 500 bucks..u hafta contribute 13% of it....AS WELL AS ur boss contributing his own money to YOUR CPF...thats why hes hiring more people...puts everyone on a avg of 3 days and therefore no one can go beyond 500 bucks which saves him having to contribute 13% to our CPF...Fucking Sly..

Just now i just found out from aunty Sally Chew that the boss went back on his word...cuz he didnt contribute 13% to her CPF..she could sue him man..but the aunty so poor thing...

The Aunty is a very good example of someone who puts in effort...she really goes all out to do the interpretation of the food..cuz she cant read English..therefore she takes pictures of the food and labels them A B C D....

Den the boss reduced her pay to 6bucks whereas that fucking numbnet gets 6.50...

before they were hired...we agreed that the old timers get a higher pay..lets say 6.50 n the new workers get paid 6...i mean wtf...he dosent do shyt man >.<

=D

2005-09-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

Satanic Verses...

2005-09-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

Mmm...Just met Abi and Alvinder just now...before that Mao, MondZ and gang...

Anyways..Abi,Alvinder and I were talking about religions....If u have happened to read this book...Satanic Verses...written by Salman Rushdie's.. (Its Banned in Sg) U gotta order it...

Its about the "Hidden Facts" of Islam....okay this I am not too Pro against... Religious Harmony etc...

So this guy...Salman claims that the Prophet Muhammed isnt that great...and he is able to back up his stuff with facts...

1) He married Aisha...one of his hundreds of wife...
2) He is said to have the sex drive of 30 men...thats why he is able to fuck hundreds of women each day...
3) He had sex with his maid...and is living somewhere in Italy??? ( This my friend told me..Unbelieveable)

Too much to take???....okay...Heres how it goes..

God sent Muhammed down as a messenger to preach to the people...In the Koran...( not sure how its spelled )...and well...they said Islam and Christ derived from the same history...

So he was preaching...one day...Satan took over his tongue and he began saying the wrong things... Like having sex randomly is okay and stuff... And the Archangel Gabriel who is called Gabrellie or something in the Koran was like...( This is not what God says )...

After confronting with Muhammed, Muhammed realised his mistake and cried...he begged God for forgiveness...But God was like...I knew u were gonna fuck it up already and stuff...

Now the scholars that wrote the Koran...They removed those passages about Muhammed screwing things up...That became the Satanic Verses....

Scary enough?....start off with the Da Vinci's Code...thats a very good book...and it was NY bestseller...Go for that if u guys are interested.

There are also other books...But start off with Da Vinci's Code...and read it if ur faith in God is strong...or if it dosent affect u in any other way after reading...

There are others...like Screwtape Letters by C.S Lewis... ( That book will screw ur mind up )
Its about the devil writing to his nephew Screwtape on how to decieve man by using certain tactics... The devil Understands u...The devil is working slowly...Only learning ur weakpoints and attacking on them....

Interesting...

A Very Important Lesson Learned

2005-08-30T10:34:00.000+08:00

working on friday...And this guy came in a Ferrarri....he was blocking a car from moving out...so i went over to ask him to park somewhere else...den he said i move it front abit...I found his face familiar...but i nv asked...den he said...i think i remember u...i used to take Cigs from u....den yea...it all came back to me....

Flashback : When the terrace first used the new wooden tables..i had to keep wiping them because they werent varnished...so there was this customer particularly i wiped the table for ...but he told me not to be so irritating.... so okay..i went over to him...and told him about that fucker...first i thought he was a nobody...cuz he didnt drive the ferrarri that day...and he was drinking the cheapest wine...and he even asked me for cigs....but i just talked to him...den today he came with that...

OMG.....lesson learned, be nice to people you dont know. He might be a minister, God knows...
Unless that person is some useless fuck....den alright...screw him/her.

>.< man....Ferrarri....gave me a shock

Mmm Exams are nearing. and bad experience with Nokia Care @ Wheelock's place

2005-08-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

SobZ...exams are nearing...i am getting stressed..i dont get holidays this semester...which totally sucks ass...after exams comes EPP2...i have yet to complete EPP1...>.<....Stress Stress Stress

So next Monday is Panel 1 Assesment..i hope my group can come up with something that really kicks ass and hope that we can answer every single question being arrowed at us with a snap of e finger.

Really busy these few days...Juli is heading home to UK today...=(...i wanted to meet her this holidays...but well...i guess its kinda hard...hope we get to meet next year...

Mmm...Nokia has really fucked up service.. I sent my phone to Nokia Care @ Wheelock's place for repair last sunday...and the customer consultant Yani told me that i could collect it the next day...so i went back there the next day...and waited like 20+ mins till someone told me that they couldent find the parts for my phone..i mean wtf...NOKIA shop cannot find NOKIA parts...okay...that part may be excused...i wasnt really pissed off la...he told me that i could collect it once they called me...den i asked how long will it take..he said 3 days...

so 3 days passed...thursday...and they never call...so i called to check...i kept calling and calling...but their stupid line has no call waiting and its always busy...

Finally i managed to get through on MONDAY (Yesterday)...and the customer consultant told me i could collect it already...I could collect it the last Thursday..i was like FUCK...since its ready for collection why cannot gimme a call to inform. And her tone was like those fucked up voice that makes me damm sian to talk to her...

Thats not the best part...i went there...collected the phone..the back button..that little push button thingy was missing..i went back to the counter and waited another 15 mins...and walked off...

2 Hours later the fucking phone had the same problem once again..now i am back using my 6610...FUCKED UP. Technician Peter Siew was obviously not doing his job properly...

Guess its time to give up...

2005-08-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

Oh wells..guess its time to give up on that girl...Its been a meaningless wait, unfruitful...futile...slow and painful...whatever u wanna call it...yea...

Oh well..can say that i never put in enough effort...but aiya...i really dont care about that...its always some dumb excuse that beats me to it...so whats the F**King point?....well the F**King point is not to wait for her anymore..shd have listened to Nadine...URGH....

Actually i am taking things pretty easy lah...haha whoever comes in my way just has gotta move behind sooner or later...

Anyways...theres gonna be a new cashier...Sabrina...whos gonna work this wed..which is tml...and i am not working!!! ARGH..>.< sianZ...

And i saw her pic....mmmZ shes kinda hot...lolZ...

I spent my Monday Night after work at Muddy's...It was YewCheng's Birthday...and we went to celebrate for him...Me Bryan, Barry and him...just e 4 of us...Den We got him a Lamborgini...LolZ..and Bryan's friends got him a Barcardi151...after which Muddy's staff gave him a shot of Baileys and some sorta whiskey...haha...

Den we went to Macs to have supper...a 2am supper?...lolZ...And...we went to look for that sabrina thru friendster...but it only showed her baby pic...haha...and she had only 14 friends...so my guess...she dosent really come online too often..>.<....added her in MSN...not sure if she has one anyways...but added still...haha...though she never met me before...

MmmZ...den well today...is a pretty long ass idle-lic day....Played WoW the moment i got up...which is around 12...haha...and didnt stop till 3+...and i continued till late...now i am level 20...alittle slow...cuz its hard to find group to train with...Rouges...argh...

Anyways...Right now i am doing my design...well i seriously dont understand how am i gonna do it...its pretty hard...Mr Cheah is giving me loads of stress..i dont see other teams as stressed as we are...we do our drawings by autocad...we hafta do calibration...and esp calibration we do ourselves...its sorta like impossible lor....i mean why cant we even get some help from Mr Lee...

HaiZ...highly stressed...hope i can destress it out by running tml.